truth is i dont think ill ever be nearly as good as i those around me and i dknt know how to feel about that
maybe its a high bar or maybe im just incompetent idk
whichever it is its still never going to happen

everythings so perfect for everyone around me and im just left in the dust of it all trying my hardest to grasp onto anything but at the end of the day its just mediocre and i dont think ill ever get past that
i probably sound like a jealous bitch right now so im gonna just delete all this tomorrow

and i knwo nobodys gonna see this since this site doesnt show people anything so im just kinda screaming into the void (haha)
i dont know why im even bothering tk type any of this i just need to get it off my chest somehow
a private place would be better for this but at this point i just dont care

somehow i convinced myself i was improving while i can barely draw anything that isnt the same slop i always make
im in a constant cycle of deluding myself into thinking there's improvement when it's all just the same
if anything imgetying worse and i dont know how to fix it

posting this like anyone here is gonna care or see this 🙃

bleh

this is the realest thing i think ive seen today

huge spider 🥺

GUHH

HARLEEEYY HAAII

buble

i look like this tbh,,