you'd think a grifter would change his opinions instantly which he did try then failed and went back to shit trump politics so its clear it did fail

elon musk is just a grifter/really stupid guy.

if he does actually become big and a dictator the first person he probly aimming for execution is you elon u idiot

it cant be ptsd or autism or adhd. it feels just like i have something else. like theres this thing i obcess with shit but not in a autism way a sick way wether thats politics or focusing on how churches have slowly turned into what they preached is bad

they feel more accepting tbh.

tbh not all christians are bad but yeah theres a bad few

i've been realising they are more sane then christians tbh

yes i have thought about joining that certain temple. been thinking about it.

i need to focus the pain on that album. and just make the most chaotic plunderphonics album. fuck it album cover

not to mention theres this feeling of just insanity i feel everytime i wake up just this mania feeling like i could do something crazy but i just ignore it or drink the thoughts away

my life is in the dumps rn tbh. what do i do to solve it. nothing. i use substances like a idiot and ignore my problems by staring a computer screen attempting to be productive in a way but never actually really being productive. fearful of dying randomly due to the habits.

and also i personally do not want to drink i feel like i have gained nothing but bad things from alchohol i have never had a good exprience it yet i keep drinking because my fucking heart fucking batshit when i dont have it.

i would usually buy 4 99s shooters and drink in one day and them come and and buy more everyday and they knew me which is rather sad

it was to the point i started buying shooters cause legit afraid i might die

any alchohol near me if i own it gets drank in one day thats how much of a danger i am to myself if i get a few drinks deep

i remember one time not long ago maybe so many months ago maybe a year idk but i drink this bottle of rum and i basicly drank the whole thing and blacked out

i probly started drinking like vodka at a age i should have not of and i realised i was alchohol probly really young because i remember i had this big ass jug of cheap shit vodka and i finished it in one day. which is not a good thing btw.