It’s 4am. I’m lay here thinking of all the things I’ve missed. What they don’t tell you about being diagnosed autistic is that when you finally start to understand some of the socialising things everyone else always understood you’ll not get the chance to enjoy it.

I’m 40 soon. I always thought I’d have an epic family party and have some friends come to. Grandparents would have made sure it was fun. Have no grandparents or my dad and very few friends is causing a loneliness I haven’t felt since uni and I don’t feel I matter. I’m so grateful for my daughter.

It’s been two years since I first lost my dad. On April 18th he was left with a progressive brain injury that meant he would never return to us. We didn’t say goodbye until December 1st that year. It was hell and I wouldn’t wish that experience on anyone.

Desperate to get some fencing in but gutted I can’t go to #adpcamp in February

Trying to navigate grief whilst being a first time mum is so hard. My brain doesn’t know how to function today so drawing new stickers for my shop. That and thankfully my little girl loves naps. Naps are amazing.

Naturally there’s a weather warning as I have a market event booked. Really hoping people still turn up to #Salfordquays tomorrow evening for the #makersmarket

I have to wonder how many people try to find me but search my old name. Love that me and my daughter have our own name that I chose

@ideasintheround.bsky.social hello there old friend

Venturing into new areas to see if I can create a new life for me and my daughter.

If you love fencing 🤺 or stationery ✏️ we will most likely get along