In the years you had me did you even think?
That what you do and say would make me dissappear in a blink?
Not understanding that words and actions have consequences
When you treat a girl like she is one of your possessions
Do I need to give you refresher lessons?
But like a comet I am gone
So Long

A succubus that knows now what she likes
Transformation is what happens when you don't treat me right
So boring and bland, its sad, the cards you put in my hand
No thrill or spice and you still didn't play nice
Do you finally understand?
Love is what I had at the start
Then y'all tore it all apart

tor Who Blanket that I got for Christmas before living there, and the TV and bed I helped buy.

I should also mention about the alt account that faer is most likely still trying to deny about and excusing faer and the others infantalizing me.

Hope they have a good life just not with me in it. They can keep the bike and desk I bought for myself, the tall and short bookshelves I bought,my Doc-

For I am a girl who finally saw the light.

Treated me like a piece of meat
An entree for them to feast
Tried to groom me into something I am not
Telling me how to wrap my skin
Rather than simply saying I am hot
Control they used because they were afraid
Of losing me that became a future of yesterday
Now I shine brighter no blight in sight

And so much more. Accepting my succubus side and catty/bitchy side too. Don't know where the future leads exactly but I making it my own.

I feel better nowadays. I met some wonderful people and am making progress in my life. Not only am I doing cosplays more but I am also going out more, experimenting makeup and keeping up with certain skills a bit more too. Being more familiar with autistic burnout and what to do when it happens.

Also didnt think last post was explained enough. I felt so uncomfortable with them.I half jokingly say if you're going to do that at least rock my world but honestly if I break up with you, you don't get that from me anymore. That's the thing too it almost felt expected from me.Like I was a servant.

Not to mention talking to each other about me trying psychedelics. An overall a terrible thing to do. It was a powerplay I did not agree to be a part of. They lost me and they'll never get me back.I moved on but wanted to put a bit more of a through post about it, my story, to get it off my chest.

I left because I was afraid of what could of came next. Her and the other and their enablers. Was it all a mind test some sort of game to them? I don't think I ever will truly know for sure. But what they did, the things they said, were not okay. It was controlling, removing my autonomy,manipulative

It left me hurt, angry, confused. Added on when one of my exes and I broke up she said we couldn't say I love you too each other which I understood but in a message tried to manipulate saying that she always loved me but I never loved faer. It wasn't just her in all this either. There's a reason why

I was terrified it was going to get worse and that something would have happened to me in a way I would never recover from. I had so many daily nightmares living there. I twitched and flinched at hearing my exes voices. They treated me like an object like property. In no way did I consent to. -

Assisted living or the cops or kicking me out if I had another anxiety induced autistic meltdown making my anxiety worse and in hindsight something they could not do. Yelled and threatened more if I said no to something or if I ignored them. It got to the point I had to bar the door *it had no lock*

That I'm not equal for me being disabled and tried to say it's about equity but not even doing that, basically telling my boundaries *that had to do with me or my space* aren't boundaries I showed many others and they concur that they are, constantly treated me like a child, threatened to call-

Tried to tell me where I can and can't go and tried to say that was a boundary, tried to say what I can and can't do for work to even blackmailing on my social security, made me feel ashamed on being my talkative outgoing self which I loved about me, constantly tried to gaslight me, tell me-