omg she's so pretty! I love her design so much. her joints look so pretty too... waow....

bsky mobile failed to send photos. as per usual.

Thank you... my therapist said something about people having hurt you despite helping you but I cant remember it and it's hard not to justify it as being my fault or I deserve it. I'm trying my best. I just had stuff come back last night I guess. Still here a bit.

To be held to feel safe. They ruined it.

Again, but it's not the same. Last time I was visiting someone and hoping to sleep together they just wanted sex. Every night it was sex next to me and poking me saying "you're next" but the first time I visited I was consoled when I had a panic attack and they held me. I just wanted that