This article changed my life.

People act like venting is good for you. Like hitting things to "let it out" is good for you. Like listening to metalcore all day has no affect on you.

It feels good. But it keeps the wheel of rage spinning.

youarenotsosmart.com/2010/08/11/c...

So I switched gears.

Calm post-rock.

Ambient to relax.

Literally The Lonely Island, bro. MC Chris. Steel Panther. Stupid, whimsical, silly shit.

I felt so much better instantly, dear reader. And I'm finally sleeping again. I'm relaxed. I'm in control.

Sure, it feels good. Sure, I identify, as I too am quite pissed off.

But I am keeping myself wound up. I am keeping the wheel of rage turning. As the song gets stuck in my head, so too does the rage.

You can't relax. You get 3 hours of sleep a night.

But after 4 days of submerging myself in vindictive, bitter, wroth music, I realised:

I am fucking myself up.

4. Ghost is one of my favourite bands. They are not stopping in Canada this tour, even though they teased they would.

3. Fall of Troy show with two good friends in Buffalo. Free ride. Wanted to see them live ever since GH3.

2. My once good friend from university days is dying of covid in hospital in Detroit. His sister and my uni friends want me to go really bad.

Man, this is so lame of them. LilRamenNoodle made sense I think, your ban is completely over the top.

...haha, psyche!