ah I'd prefer not to give up of course, I just wonder how much it matters what I want haha

I got my PS4 modded so I might complain about sony being stupid and annoying a little bit more hm

ooooh but what could I watch, what could I play... So much good things out there I get choice paralysis ahaha

Of course I appreciate it, any interaction makes me happy and hearing that you like my work even more ahaha

It just feels like it doesn't matter? think I'm lacking a better word for this but something like that

Whatever I do to feel some small amount of joy just doesn't really work anymore
Human interactions, listening to music, playing with my cat, it's good if it at least helps feel better in the moment but nothing lasts long, nothing makes it feel worth it hm

Haha yeah can't deny it's nice to hear someone disagree when I complain about being worthless

But this time it isn't about my art, I don't think it's about me much
Whole world and future I imagine just kinda suck and I don't want to exist in it haha