I've temporarily moved from Ohio to New York before moving permanently to Amsterdam. The feeling of safety I've gotten here is almost overwhelming. Living in a red state that has passed a bill with there are only male and female that are unchangeable to a state with protections for trans people.

It's been a rough time the last 27 days. Just can't wait for my fiancée to be done with his job so we can be together. I've gone through some deep depression in this time. I had my first Christmas totally alone. Once together,it will be worth the time apart.

Squad goals last night were exceeded. We slayed the mall. Is Santa on our good list the real question?

I have one more week at my job. Then I'm taking a month off and spending time with my fiancee. In January, we are moving to the Netherlands. It's no longer safe for me in this country as a trans woman.

Today has been a rough day after lasts night TDOR. I was shocked by the number of kids on the list this year. You could hear people gasp and crying when seeing the ages. This year has been a traumatizing year for the trans community.