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23 - They / Them - 18+ Minors DNI
How do I tell him I want him to amp it up bad ?
February 15, 2025 at 8:00 AM
February 15, 2025 at 6:33 AM
If they are poly then I hope things get more intense with him. The level of feral between us would be unmatched. It would be nice to embrace some new parts of myself while fulfilling things I never thought would be
February 15, 2025 at 6:33 AM
I don’t know if he’s poly (god I hope he is) but obviously for sure enm. His girlfriend is so pretty and soft femme but she definitely has a bite that I love seeing her unleash on idiot men. I don’t think I’d date her since she’s so femme but I would definitely scene and be friends with her
February 15, 2025 at 6:33 AM
Anyway yeah I’m not only physically feral for this man but he’s encouraging behaviors without knowing it (or maybe he does know it) that have me going nuts. Anytime he mentions his research/notes on me I want to jump his bones and suck the life out of him
February 15, 2025 at 6:33 AM
I already keep notes on him, maybe I’ll make them more in depth rather than just the little tidbits I have here and there.
February 15, 2025 at 6:33 AM
It’s not super intentional observation. I just notice things. That is, until I gain an invested interest. Then I start focusing and learning more.
February 15, 2025 at 6:33 AM
I am aware of his behavior in a multitude of ways because he’s given me access. Fet, discord (with two shared servers), and steam basically informs me how he spends his days away from work and kink events.
February 15, 2025 at 6:33 AM
I observe and study people like that all the time. I just don’t tell them about it. I usually keep that shit quiet because people don’t usually like when they are being watched like that. But he makes me want to embrace that and show him how much I enjoy observing him
February 15, 2025 at 6:33 AM
Every time I share some insight into my behavior or talk about a kink or hell even my fucking steam wishlist / library he always says “I know. I do my research.” And when I tell you the more pinpointed and obscure the information the wetter I get
February 15, 2025 at 6:33 AM
That’s right besties we’re romanticizing those traits for me now. I’m finally embracing them in a kinky way because I have a top who likes intently observing me and it’s triggering some wild feelings
February 15, 2025 at 6:33 AM
Also I have no fucking idea how I’m going to hide all this bruising from my family and people at school. Like it extends down my arms and up my neck. I’ll need to wear long sleeves and keep my hair down
February 3, 2025 at 5:40 AM
I think I’m craving connection more than anything tbh
February 3, 2025 at 5:40 AM
As I’m writing this I’m realizing that I’m not insane for needing support. A new level of damage and pain inflicted upon my body has been reached. I’ve never gotten anywhere this much before. Of course I’m shocked and struggling
February 3, 2025 at 5:40 AM
For some reason a fact that is comforting me is that the body cannot tell the difference between consensual and nonconsensual trauma so it will react the same regardless.
February 3, 2025 at 5:40 AM
What I didn’t expect though was to have “what have I done?” Thoughts when looking in the mirror. I love marks and bruising. But this is the first time I’ve left a scene with this much damage and I think it’s shocking to me.
February 3, 2025 at 5:40 AM
But the downside is this severe ass drop. The pain and swelling are certainly contributing to the crummy feelings.
February 3, 2025 at 5:40 AM
Honest to god I’ve never been more turned on in my life. There was so much about my time with him that makes me absolutely feral. Made worse by the fact that I didn’t get off during so it was essentially a massive tease
February 3, 2025 at 5:40 AM
The scene itself was amazing. I hung out with My Biter (who has definitely earned that title now) and he spent the better part of six hours biting me all over my torso. Im covered in teeth shaped bruises and huge swathes of solid purple skin. I loved every second and would do it again in a heartbeat
February 3, 2025 at 5:40 AM
It’s especially sucky because I’m honest to god not sure what I need from him to feel better. I’m not having any specific insecurities or negative thoughts. I’m just sad and want to be held and treated gently.
February 3, 2025 at 5:40 AM