banner
gordianstimm.bsky.social
.
@gordianstimm.bsky.social
Word dump
Prairie Dog Monochrome And Another Thing You Had Coming
August 15, 2023 at 2:16 PM
Everyone autism until you're too fucking annoying in which case get fucked which checks out my tether is too short but I can't afford the elongation which means I can neither work tech or live in London to catharsise or hang out with people who assault my friends what fucking joy alterity brings
August 11, 2023 at 11:33 AM
You treat your dogs like babies and your babies like dogs while I can't tell the difference between what whimper in my own head is either inner child animus or just plain stupidity just plan your journey plan your journey plan your journey get off at the next stop and catch your breath maybe
August 10, 2023 at 12:25 PM
Reposted by .
AI as currently implemented is worse than awful, it's trivial. AI being contemptible doesn't negate the very idea of "intellectual property" is also trash and a weapon used by industry to gatekeep, fabricate scarcity and punish outsiders.
August 8, 2023 at 4:13 AM
Granola bar half a spliff pint can of carlsberg three drains magpies and other superstitions get shouted at from moving cars while stimming with a knackared shredded bus ticket just like how you were flipped off by the man in the flat bed truck I spent all night throwing up bro give me a break
August 9, 2023 at 4:02 PM
Oh how I needed you this morning
August 4, 2023 at 8:58 AM
I am spending a lot of time attempting to decompress and keep in the tears on my front step. I like how the clouds look when they're illuminated by the streetlights. It must be the combination of specific hues. Not a poetic bone in my body to describe whatever aptly.
August 3, 2023 at 11:37 PM
Yesterday was really nice though. Slept a lot, are food with Zoe and we watched more of The Bear. We then just loafed around and played games, I tidied my room somewhat and managed to do a whole job application in one go, which I'm v proud of. It's nice to know you can stick to things sometimes.
August 3, 2023 at 8:14 AM
Still not immune from the breakdowns and meltdowns. I know ill never be, but I also simply hate going through them.
August 3, 2023 at 8:13 AM
Uh oh she's listening to basketball shoes again
August 1, 2023 at 11:22 AM
Morning. Back to feeling completely hopeless then. What fun while it lasted.
August 1, 2023 at 7:45 AM
I think I am terrified of intimacy really. Terrified of finding out what my boundaries are.
July 31, 2023 at 5:18 PM
One thing about this whole attempting to focus on myself first and foremost thing is that when I'm not with Zoe I really do feel very lonely. I feel so very outside of everyone's lives, outside of any and all alterity. How do you strike a balance?
I probably need to be more patient.
July 31, 2023 at 5:13 PM
A very challenging week.
Fingers sliced open, a+e visited, ending long distance relationships, difficult conversations about intimacy, figuring out how to maintain a healthy work/brain balance....
.... I'm still going! Still doing it!!
July 30, 2023 at 5:31 PM
She's saying good morning :)))
July 25, 2023 at 7:41 AM
Once again well rested. I cant get enough of this feeling!! Is this what I've been missing out on? Has the looking after myself of it all finally clicked??
July 24, 2023 at 9:46 AM
What's up buttercup??
July 24, 2023 at 9:45 AM
Another lovely day of doing absolutely nothing. We woke up at 7 and smoked a joint and I went back to sleep while Zoe played games. I made us a nice meal and met her a couple more hours later after she saw Barbie and we ate Italian food in bed. She is now snoozing away and I am gargantuanly in love
July 23, 2023 at 10:10 PM
While I'm so sad to have had to drop out of these shows with gender warfare in terms of making their lives more difficult and also the slight fomo, I'm very glad and proud that I have let my little brain rest. I went to get kitchen stuff from Wilko and Zoe helped me make my room look cozy :))
July 22, 2023 at 10:52 PM
Anyway... woke up in a stupor today to only feel my mood improve throughout the day which was very very nice. I think I may have washed away the bad feelings in the flood of 1030am tears. They say river sediment is good fertilizer, no?
July 21, 2023 at 4:07 PM
I think it would be nice to have more friends on here but it's fine because this is only a journal of sorts ?
July 21, 2023 at 4:05 PM
Sun is shining, watering the plants in my bra at work, very sick
July 20, 2023 at 10:12 AM
Listening to Peter Gabriel while walking home in the rain. Very good. Not quite red rain, just regular rain.
July 19, 2023 at 2:47 PM
The sheer look of confusion I get from delivery drivers when they see a futch ass tranny who calls them darlin' proceed to absolutely cane carrying half their delivery in for them
July 18, 2023 at 10:49 AM
Hearing a Sam Fender song and understanding that it is a song by Sam Fender for the first time and it literally just sounds like The Gaslight Anthem which is, I think, very funny. Ok.
July 17, 2023 at 9:20 AM