cw: self harm

it's kinda sobering seeing my SH scars a lot clearer like this. i didn't have many that were deep, but there's all the lighter ones that are invisible now, but still show under the blacklight. I'm really good about SH now, but wow for a while there I used to cut myself almost daily

groggily waking up n from a really horny dream, to a critter choking on your dick, pawing at you so weakly, their eyes going hazy....

talking to me sucks because I'm probably going to get too anxious to reply and then leave you on read for forever.

even when I could come back and reply I know I'm probably gonna do the same thing again and I don't want people to waste their time and energy on me

I hate hate hate talking about my mental health because I don't want people to worry about me but I also should stop bottling things up before there's good reason to worry