i’m trying so hard to just make it a healthy habit for myself, especially now since I work from home more, but it’s so hard to not let it consume me & become a negative, harmful thing.

I want it to be focused on just being healthy & strong, but its all I think about rn & I over do it, & I don’t do things correctly & then I hurt myself prolonging the breaks I take & then I feel like shit for not pushing through

I want to focus on going to the gym more but finding the motivation & time is becoming all consuming & it’s all I think about & i’m scared i’ll fall back into my unhealthy habits

Im sure a lot of this has to do with my period or whatever but I am seriously struggling & I feel so ugly & gross & I feel like I can’t break out of this mindset, i’m doing what I can, while also trying to care for my mental health but it doesn’t feel like enough