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So, THIS is what it's like to be "radicalized"...
Nothing left to lose.
I understand now.
Kein Mitleid für die Mehrheit.
"There's bullet holes where my compassion used to be, and there is violence in my heart."
Nothing left to lose.
I understand now.
Kein Mitleid für die Mehrheit.
"There's bullet holes where my compassion used to be, and there is violence in my heart."
As it turns out, there isn't anyone out there who will help me, no one will save me. People have seen this, but no one has helped. And that's alright. Life's not for everyone. Some of us aren't deserving.
It's over now.
The night is cold, and that's perfect.
1/3
It's over now.
The night is cold, and that's perfect.
1/3
December 1, 2025 at 12:34 AM
As it turns out, there isn't anyone out there who will help me, no one will save me. People have seen this, but no one has helped. And that's alright. Life's not for everyone. Some of us aren't deserving.
It's over now.
The night is cold, and that's perfect.
1/3
It's over now.
The night is cold, and that's perfect.
1/3
It's been 6 years, 8 months, 4 weeks, & 1 day since I became homeless and took up living in my vehicle. That's a long time too.
I'm clearly a failed experiment. It's probably right that it finally end. I'm not worth ANYTHING.
Life just isn't for everyone.
#suicide
I'm clearly a failed experiment. It's probably right that it finally end. I'm not worth ANYTHING.
Life just isn't for everyone.
#suicide
November 30, 2025 at 1:31 PM
It's been 6 years, 8 months, 4 weeks, & 1 day since I became homeless and took up living in my vehicle. That's a long time too.
I'm clearly a failed experiment. It's probably right that it finally end. I'm not worth ANYTHING.
Life just isn't for everyone.
#suicide
I'm clearly a failed experiment. It's probably right that it finally end. I'm not worth ANYTHING.
Life just isn't for everyone.
#suicide
It's been 2 years, 10 months, 2 weeks, & 4 days since someone last helped me with a bail-out. Gods, but I had every intention of paying that back. Instead, here I am again. None of my efforts were good enough. Nothing I did made a difference. I don't deserve another chance.
I am worthless.
#suicide
I am worthless.
#suicide
November 30, 2025 at 1:25 PM
It's been 2 years, 10 months, 2 weeks, & 4 days since someone last helped me with a bail-out. Gods, but I had every intention of paying that back. Instead, here I am again. None of my efforts were good enough. Nothing I did made a difference. I don't deserve another chance.
I am worthless.
#suicide
I am worthless.
#suicide
I think this is it. Finally.
I'll keep living for $15k. It doesn't even have to be charity. I'll work for it, but it has to happen right now. I need it today. Seems like a small amount for a life, but what do I know. Maybe I really am not worth that.
#suicide
I'll keep living for $15k. It doesn't even have to be charity. I'll work for it, but it has to happen right now. I need it today. Seems like a small amount for a life, but what do I know. Maybe I really am not worth that.
#suicide
November 30, 2025 at 12:52 PM
I think this is it. Finally.
I'll keep living for $15k. It doesn't even have to be charity. I'll work for it, but it has to happen right now. I need it today. Seems like a small amount for a life, but what do I know. Maybe I really am not worth that.
#suicide
I'll keep living for $15k. It doesn't even have to be charity. I'll work for it, but it has to happen right now. I need it today. Seems like a small amount for a life, but what do I know. Maybe I really am not worth that.
#suicide
My Darkness is walking around my vehicle as I go to sleep tonight. Circling, watching. It knows the end is near. It leans in at the window almost like a friend. I think this is acceptance. It's not threatening. When it offers it's hand, I'll take it and go.
Will anyone care? Do you?
#suicide
Will anyone care? Do you?
#suicide
November 30, 2025 at 2:07 AM
My Darkness is walking around my vehicle as I go to sleep tonight. Circling, watching. It knows the end is near. It leans in at the window almost like a friend. I think this is acceptance. It's not threatening. When it offers it's hand, I'll take it and go.
Will anyone care? Do you?
#suicide
Will anyone care? Do you?
#suicide
Black Friday doesn't mean a damn thing when you haven't got a single cent of extra money. And Holidays barely exist, for that matter. I celebrated with a handful of extra grapes as a sweet-treat. ... And I probably shouldn't have because of the cost.
November 29, 2025 at 1:26 AM
Black Friday doesn't mean a damn thing when you haven't got a single cent of extra money. And Holidays barely exist, for that matter. I celebrated with a handful of extra grapes as a sweet-treat. ... And I probably shouldn't have because of the cost.
"Rage is only for the good days..."
November 28, 2025 at 1:03 PM
"Rage is only for the good days..."
Republicans, and religious people (a lot of overlap there), chronically fail to think things through. Amazingly short-sighted and surprised by consequences.
November 25, 2025 at 1:48 PM
Republicans, and religious people (a lot of overlap there), chronically fail to think things through. Amazingly short-sighted and surprised by consequences.
Trump was recently booed at a football game. He was swearing in new service members at the time, right?
... Didn't he notice the "disobey illegal orders" part during this?
What a fcking moron.
... Didn't he notice the "disobey illegal orders" part during this?
What a fcking moron.
November 24, 2025 at 9:27 PM
Trump was recently booed at a football game. He was swearing in new service members at the time, right?
... Didn't he notice the "disobey illegal orders" part during this?
What a fcking moron.
... Didn't he notice the "disobey illegal orders" part during this?
What a fcking moron.
"How should we die?
Our beautiful freedom
Can't keep it alive
when you can't find the meaning
Look at us now,
beaten and bleeding
There's nothing inside,
no truth and no reason"
~ Higher Than Death, by 3TEETH
Our beautiful freedom
Can't keep it alive
when you can't find the meaning
Look at us now,
beaten and bleeding
There's nothing inside,
no truth and no reason"
~ Higher Than Death, by 3TEETH
November 19, 2025 at 12:08 PM
"How should we die?
Our beautiful freedom
Can't keep it alive
when you can't find the meaning
Look at us now,
beaten and bleeding
There's nothing inside,
no truth and no reason"
~ Higher Than Death, by 3TEETH
Our beautiful freedom
Can't keep it alive
when you can't find the meaning
Look at us now,
beaten and bleeding
There's nothing inside,
no truth and no reason"
~ Higher Than Death, by 3TEETH
Tonight, for the last hour, it's looking very much like I don't have to wait for the CC to be frozen. I don't need to wait. I don't need to let a corporation decide when my time is up. I can do that myself.
I'm not sure that I need to wait.
The gun is right here. Why wait?
#suicide
I'm not sure that I need to wait.
The gun is right here. Why wait?
#suicide
November 19, 2025 at 1:46 AM
Tonight, for the last hour, it's looking very much like I don't have to wait for the CC to be frozen. I don't need to wait. I don't need to let a corporation decide when my time is up. I can do that myself.
I'm not sure that I need to wait.
The gun is right here. Why wait?
#suicide
I'm not sure that I need to wait.
The gun is right here. Why wait?
#suicide
Clay Higgens (Republican), seen here solemnly swearing to rape as many children as possible, voted to protect pedophiles. He should be treated exactly as that deserves.
#fuckrepublicans
#fuckrepublicans
November 18, 2025 at 8:46 PM
Clay Higgens (Republican), seen here solemnly swearing to rape as many children as possible, voted to protect pedophiles. He should be treated exactly as that deserves.
#fuckrepublicans
#fuckrepublicans
Stay aware.
Do not just let it happen.
They will not stop on their own.
They must BE stopped.
#fuckice
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Do not just let it happen.
They will not stop on their own.
They must BE stopped.
#fuckice
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November 17, 2025 at 1:44 AM
Stay aware.
Do not just let it happen.
They will not stop on their own.
They must BE stopped.
#fuckice
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Do not just let it happen.
They will not stop on their own.
They must BE stopped.
#fuckice
stopice.net
I won't say what movie this is from because it's current. No spoilers. But in the flick, there's a room that can show you a death, yours or someone else's. How, but not when.
"It's the waiting." he said.
"That's the hard part."
---
I've seen my death.
Now I wait.
And that's surprisingly hard.
"It's the waiting." he said.
"That's the hard part."
---
I've seen my death.
Now I wait.
And that's surprisingly hard.
November 16, 2025 at 3:05 AM
I won't say what movie this is from because it's current. No spoilers. But in the flick, there's a room that can show you a death, yours or someone else's. How, but not when.
"It's the waiting." he said.
"That's the hard part."
---
I've seen my death.
Now I wait.
And that's surprisingly hard.
"It's the waiting." he said.
"That's the hard part."
---
I've seen my death.
Now I wait.
And that's surprisingly hard.
"It's not nice being scared alone."
~ Joe, in Civil War (2024)
~ Joe, in Civil War (2024)
November 16, 2025 at 12:10 AM
"It's not nice being scared alone."
~ Joe, in Civil War (2024)
~ Joe, in Civil War (2024)
I listen to some German language podcasts. I recently heard an ad for a videogame, Battlefield 6. Six in German is pronounced 'sechs' or 'sex' and I couldn't stop snickering like a 5th-grader.
November 14, 2025 at 3:18 PM
I listen to some German language podcasts. I recently heard an ad for a videogame, Battlefield 6. Six in German is pronounced 'sechs' or 'sex' and I couldn't stop snickering like a 5th-grader.
It's cold tonight, and I love it.
I have a good sleeping bag, two military wool blankets, a good blade and a .45 for the thieves. I am as snug and comfortable as it's possible to be without four walls. I listen to the wind in the bushes and trees around me.
Winter > Summer.
V
V
V
#homeless
I have a good sleeping bag, two military wool blankets, a good blade and a .45 for the thieves. I am as snug and comfortable as it's possible to be without four walls. I listen to the wind in the bushes and trees around me.
Winter > Summer.
V
V
V
#homeless
November 11, 2025 at 1:32 AM
It's cold tonight, and I love it.
I have a good sleeping bag, two military wool blankets, a good blade and a .45 for the thieves. I am as snug and comfortable as it's possible to be without four walls. I listen to the wind in the bushes and trees around me.
Winter > Summer.
V
V
V
#homeless
I have a good sleeping bag, two military wool blankets, a good blade and a .45 for the thieves. I am as snug and comfortable as it's possible to be without four walls. I listen to the wind in the bushes and trees around me.
Winter > Summer.
V
V
V
#homeless
I'm gonna put a big'ol "Told Ya So" on this one. NEVER trust a Republican. Never. If they say 'Water is wet.' you better go check for yourself.
In the most predictable development ever, Mike Johnson is not committing to hold a House vote on ACA subsidies
November 11, 2025 at 1:03 AM
I'm gonna put a big'ol "Told Ya So" on this one. NEVER trust a Republican. Never. If they say 'Water is wet.' you better go check for yourself.
For those keeping score here's how it breaks down:
If you drive a Tesla, it better be an OLD-ass Tesla. Like, 15 years. You get a tiny bit of grace for that. If it's a new one, you're a Nazi sympathizing asshole, AT BEST. If it's a Cybertruck, you fail. You are a douche-canoe, Nazi fck.
If you drive a Tesla, it better be an OLD-ass Tesla. Like, 15 years. You get a tiny bit of grace for that. If it's a new one, you're a Nazi sympathizing asshole, AT BEST. If it's a Cybertruck, you fail. You are a douche-canoe, Nazi fck.
November 7, 2025 at 3:00 PM
For those keeping score here's how it breaks down:
If you drive a Tesla, it better be an OLD-ass Tesla. Like, 15 years. You get a tiny bit of grace for that. If it's a new one, you're a Nazi sympathizing asshole, AT BEST. If it's a Cybertruck, you fail. You are a douche-canoe, Nazi fck.
If you drive a Tesla, it better be an OLD-ass Tesla. Like, 15 years. You get a tiny bit of grace for that. If it's a new one, you're a Nazi sympathizing asshole, AT BEST. If it's a Cybertruck, you fail. You are a douche-canoe, Nazi fck.
I've thrown a few things in my day, but I've never thrown an actual Molotov cocktail.
... I feel like my life is incomplete.
... I feel like my life is incomplete.
November 6, 2025 at 6:41 PM
I've thrown a few things in my day, but I've never thrown an actual Molotov cocktail.
... I feel like my life is incomplete.
... I feel like my life is incomplete.
Was served-up an ad online for a pneumatic-jack from Temu.
I don't know about you all, but I'm not climbing under a car propped up on anything from Temu.
... And that's coming from me, who is legitimately suicidal.
I don't know about you all, but I'm not climbing under a car propped up on anything from Temu.
... And that's coming from me, who is legitimately suicidal.
November 6, 2025 at 3:46 PM
Was served-up an ad online for a pneumatic-jack from Temu.
I don't know about you all, but I'm not climbing under a car propped up on anything from Temu.
... And that's coming from me, who is legitimately suicidal.
I don't know about you all, but I'm not climbing under a car propped up on anything from Temu.
... And that's coming from me, who is legitimately suicidal.
"Beating tired bones
Tripping through remember when
Once invincible
Now the armor's wearing thin
Heavy shield down
Warrior
Strugglin'
To remain
Relevant
Warrior
Strugglin'
To remain
Consequential
Cry aloud, bold and proud
Of where I've been
But here I am
Where I end"
~ Invincible by TOOL
Tripping through remember when
Once invincible
Now the armor's wearing thin
Heavy shield down
Warrior
Strugglin'
To remain
Relevant
Warrior
Strugglin'
To remain
Consequential
Cry aloud, bold and proud
Of where I've been
But here I am
Where I end"
~ Invincible by TOOL
November 5, 2025 at 1:58 PM
"Beating tired bones
Tripping through remember when
Once invincible
Now the armor's wearing thin
Heavy shield down
Warrior
Strugglin'
To remain
Relevant
Warrior
Strugglin'
To remain
Consequential
Cry aloud, bold and proud
Of where I've been
But here I am
Where I end"
~ Invincible by TOOL
Tripping through remember when
Once invincible
Now the armor's wearing thin
Heavy shield down
Warrior
Strugglin'
To remain
Relevant
Warrior
Strugglin'
To remain
Consequential
Cry aloud, bold and proud
Of where I've been
But here I am
Where I end"
~ Invincible by TOOL
I'm really sick of this trope of sanitizing someone's past just because they are dead.
If a horrible person dies, they don't become a good person all of a sudden.
Stop doing that.
If a horrible person dies, they don't become a good person all of a sudden.
Stop doing that.
November 5, 2025 at 1:35 AM
I'm really sick of this trope of sanitizing someone's past just because they are dead.
If a horrible person dies, they don't become a good person all of a sudden.
Stop doing that.
If a horrible person dies, they don't become a good person all of a sudden.
Stop doing that.