Right, it was oshi day....why does that sting a little...?
November 5, 2025 at 7:26 AM
Right, it was oshi day....why does that sting a little...?
60 % done putting all of them lewds together into a giant folder. Should be ready late Sunday and then I can move on with it.
November 2, 2025 at 6:31 AM
60 % done putting all of them lewds together into a giant folder. Should be ready late Sunday and then I can move on with it.
Got a little bit sentimental over deleting everything but vtuber stuff is no more
October 27, 2025 at 6:40 AM
Got a little bit sentimental over deleting everything but vtuber stuff is no more
It took longer for me to let go but it's slowly doing its thing where I'm thinking less and less about what I did there and trying to look for what I'm doing next (emphasis on "trying" 🙃) but yeah, it's going
October 27, 2025 at 3:50 AM
It took longer for me to let go but it's slowly doing its thing where I'm thinking less and less about what I did there and trying to look for what I'm doing next (emphasis on "trying" 🙃) but yeah, it's going
By posting these lewds I've been hoarding it feels like I'm exposing my shame because I've still commissioned stuff for her but with that much shame I don't want to do it anymore
October 25, 2025 at 3:24 AM
By posting these lewds I've been hoarding it feels like I'm exposing my shame because I've still commissioned stuff for her but with that much shame I don't want to do it anymore
Posting those lewds I've amassed during this period makes it looks like I had ordered all of them at once but I've never posted them at all lol
October 22, 2025 at 12:45 PM
Posting those lewds I've amassed during this period makes it looks like I had ordered all of them at once but I've never posted them at all lol
One last time and I think I can move on. Now if the wait wouldn't be so long...
October 20, 2025 at 3:54 AM
One last time and I think I can move on. Now if the wait wouldn't be so long...
Every now and then I'm thinking back of how I used to trust people there and then I get reminded that trusting them was a mistake seeing how I get mocked by the ones I used to trust the most. Used to think these people were my friends. Best not to think of them anymore.
September 24, 2025 at 3:14 PM
Every now and then I'm thinking back of how I used to trust people there and then I get reminded that trusting them was a mistake seeing how I get mocked by the ones I used to trust the most. Used to think these people were my friends. Best not to think of them anymore.
And I'm back to where I started before this whole vtuber thing. Getting lonely and stuff.
Can't talk to the others because they clearly dislike me so it's up to me and myself to find other people to talk to.
Can't talk to the others because they clearly dislike me so it's up to me and myself to find other people to talk to.
August 26, 2025 at 4:29 AM
And I'm back to where I started before this whole vtuber thing. Getting lonely and stuff.
Can't talk to the others because they clearly dislike me so it's up to me and myself to find other people to talk to.
Can't talk to the others because they clearly dislike me so it's up to me and myself to find other people to talk to.
Still kinda mad that they act like I'm not allowed there. Do they imagine my debt would go away if I stop watching her? That's not how it works. It's about restraining myself and I've been lacking this a lot, but if I know it's bad and it blows over, I won't just do it all over again
August 21, 2025 at 4:34 AM
Still kinda mad that they act like I'm not allowed there. Do they imagine my debt would go away if I stop watching her? That's not how it works. It's about restraining myself and I've been lacking this a lot, but if I know it's bad and it blows over, I won't just do it all over again
In all honesty, I am doing better. Not falling for commissions and buying merch, spending more time with family, taking more care of myself, it's been a while but I am doing well.
I'm just using her stream as a downtime while doing other stuff,I still suck at writing and drawing but I am doing smth
I'm just using her stream as a downtime while doing other stuff,I still suck at writing and drawing but I am doing smth
August 20, 2025 at 7:01 PM
In all honesty, I am doing better. Not falling for commissions and buying merch, spending more time with family, taking more care of myself, it's been a while but I am doing well.
I'm just using her stream as a downtime while doing other stuff,I still suck at writing and drawing but I am doing smth
I'm just using her stream as a downtime while doing other stuff,I still suck at writing and drawing but I am doing smth
I still don't think what you did was right. Not because of me, but because of telling them about him and then jumping on him when everybody else did.
August 20, 2025 at 6:46 AM
I still don't think what you did was right. Not because of me, but because of telling them about him and then jumping on him when everybody else did.
Im gonna stop chatting in there or any chat because it's what causes most of my problems I think - the desire to be seen but if I never chat this problem won't arise. Just the desire to talk elsewhere and it makes me talk at least
August 20, 2025 at 5:48 AM
Im gonna stop chatting in there or any chat because it's what causes most of my problems I think - the desire to be seen but if I never chat this problem won't arise. Just the desire to talk elsewhere and it makes me talk at least
The more I think about it, the more I should leave it all behind, start somewhere anew. But with this job and my current lifestyle and other obligations, it's impossible. At least, it seems like it.
August 10, 2025 at 6:15 AM
The more I think about it, the more I should leave it all behind, start somewhere anew. But with this job and my current lifestyle and other obligations, it's impossible. At least, it seems like it.
There's so much I want to say about my current situation, so much I want to talk about, but I just can't open up honestly. Because I have cared so little about myself, I have become too used to not talk about my feelings.
August 9, 2025 at 8:49 AM
There's so much I want to say about my current situation, so much I want to talk about, but I just can't open up honestly. Because I have cared so little about myself, I have become too used to not talk about my feelings.
it's not about her anymore, that much I know now
but she helps me to focus more in a way
please forgive me watching and commenting under a new name until I'm more confident again
but she helps me to focus more in a way
please forgive me watching and commenting under a new name until I'm more confident again
August 9, 2025 at 8:20 AM
it's not about her anymore, that much I know now
but she helps me to focus more in a way
please forgive me watching and commenting under a new name until I'm more confident again
but she helps me to focus more in a way
please forgive me watching and commenting under a new name until I'm more confident again
the one time i can't join the stream she had the best stream in a while
its really because of me huh
its really because of me huh
March 9, 2025 at 2:01 AM
the one time i can't join the stream she had the best stream in a while
its really because of me huh
its really because of me huh
the tin looks so much nicer without my comments tbh
March 8, 2025 at 8:09 PM
the tin looks so much nicer without my comments tbh
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Wanna sing together?
#shiillustration
#shiillustration
March 2, 2025 at 12:59 AM
Wanna sing together?
#shiillustration
#shiillustration
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February 11, 2025 at 6:37 PM
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her song finally released
I still cant believe it
And it made me want to stay more with her
Never wanting to leave her side
Never forgetting her for as long as I live
She's the focus in my life right now and I know it's wrong, but I chose this path by myself
despite that, she makes me learn
I still cant believe it
And it made me want to stay more with her
Never wanting to leave her side
Never forgetting her for as long as I live
She's the focus in my life right now and I know it's wrong, but I chose this path by myself
despite that, she makes me learn
February 15, 2025 at 5:50 AM
her song finally released
I still cant believe it
And it made me want to stay more with her
Never wanting to leave her side
Never forgetting her for as long as I live
She's the focus in my life right now and I know it's wrong, but I chose this path by myself
despite that, she makes me learn
I still cant believe it
And it made me want to stay more with her
Never wanting to leave her side
Never forgetting her for as long as I live
She's the focus in my life right now and I know it's wrong, but I chose this path by myself
despite that, she makes me learn
Getting angry for no reason at all, what gives?
February 7, 2025 at 12:41 AM
Getting angry for no reason at all, what gives?
Not sure why I'm still in such a sour mood even after watching her stream.
Whatever. Sleeping will fix this.
Whatever. Sleeping will fix this.
February 6, 2025 at 4:03 AM
Not sure why I'm still in such a sour mood even after watching her stream.
Whatever. Sleeping will fix this.
Whatever. Sleeping will fix this.