so in other words i didnt kill my old self and she lives alongside me and my friends forever :D i just taught her a few things thats all!!!!! hopefully this makes sense im typing this on a whim

of being both a boy and a girl and Still allowing myself to be myself (fem) it was like a click like oh Duh. its funny too because sheri is actually my birth name and i am still happy and content with that name :) i use fifi online too for fun but sheri will always be Me i think.

i didnt wanna be masculine so i thought i had to be a girl and that was how i thought for a long while Aswell and that hindered my explorations for a bit T__T the reason for my aversion to masculinity is a whole other can of worms but literally the moment i started to conceptualize the idea-

"How do you conceptualize your pre-transition self?"
she was very confused and neurotic and i still am but the important part is that she was in denial for a long time and was afraid of being Wrong. that was the biggest thing for me i didnt wanna be Wrong or fake lol as silly as it sounds.