Hannah B. Makes
@hannahbmakes.bsky.social
ETERNALLY EXISTENTIAL on Substack. Writer & storyteller. Living a Creative Life, Healing & Humaning, Learning & Growing. She/Her
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Hannah B. Makes
@hannahbmakes.bsky.social
· Nov 25
Hi! I’m Hannah, a late-dx autistic writer who spent her first 30yrs in fundamentalist evangelical Christianity. I currently write about my deconstruction/deconversion journey & spirituality outside of high control religion.
I also love musical theatre so there will be showtunes somewhere, always.
I also love musical theatre so there will be showtunes somewhere, always.
My new Substack article talking about the play I’m writing this summer and sharing some thoughts on the idea of “success.”
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The Myth of Success
What matters in life doesn't always come with a paycheck, a promotion, a spotlight, or an audience
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June 27, 2025 at 10:10 PM
My new Substack article talking about the play I’m writing this summer and sharing some thoughts on the idea of “success.”
eternallyexistential.substack.com/p/the-myth-o...
eternallyexistential.substack.com/p/the-myth-o...
I was trying to tell my husband that I need to shred the rotisserie chicken, but what came out of my mouth is “I need to peel the chicken.”😂
June 19, 2025 at 2:42 AM
I was trying to tell my husband that I need to shred the rotisserie chicken, but what came out of my mouth is “I need to peel the chicken.”😂
I signed up to take a play writing class this summer & I’m giddy about it! I’ve had these characters swimming around in my mind for a little while. I’m really excited about focused learning, time, & intention toward writing these women and their story in a play format!
May 5, 2025 at 1:22 AM
I signed up to take a play writing class this summer & I’m giddy about it! I’ve had these characters swimming around in my mind for a little while. I’m really excited about focused learning, time, & intention toward writing these women and their story in a play format!
“This means that there is an even balance between the dark and the light. Living is also so much about existing within dualities. The equinox feel like an opportunity for us to balance back into a state of energetic equilibrium.” Read more
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Back to Equilibrium
What the spring equinox teaches us about being human
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March 31, 2025 at 2:18 PM
“This means that there is an even balance between the dark and the light. Living is also so much about existing within dualities. The equinox feel like an opportunity for us to balance back into a state of energetic equilibrium.” Read more
eternallyexistential.substack.com/p/back-to-eq...
eternallyexistential.substack.com/p/back-to-eq...
I’m not exaggerating when I say that this is the wildest thing I’ve ever experienced in my life.
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In Another Life
The incomprehensible event that happened after my past-life regression hypnotherapy session that rocked my world
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March 19, 2025 at 2:20 PM
I’m not exaggerating when I say that this is the wildest thing I’ve ever experienced in my life.
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I'm 100% sure that if Dante Alighieri wrote Inferno today, in one of his 9 circles of hell he would include calling customer service to try and get an issue solved, being misunderstood by AI tech, saying "Speak to a representative" on repeat, but never being able to speak to an actual human.
March 17, 2025 at 7:56 PM
I'm 100% sure that if Dante Alighieri wrote Inferno today, in one of his 9 circles of hell he would include calling customer service to try and get an issue solved, being misunderstood by AI tech, saying "Speak to a representative" on repeat, but never being able to speak to an actual human.
If you deconstruct your faith but don’t interrogate your ego, racism, & misogyny, then no matter what space you find yourself in, those toxic behaviors will follow you.
So don’t think just bc you left church that you’ve absolved yourself from toxicity. The call can come from inside your own house.
So don’t think just bc you left church that you’ve absolved yourself from toxicity. The call can come from inside your own house.
March 17, 2025 at 2:57 PM
If you deconstruct your faith but don’t interrogate your ego, racism, & misogyny, then no matter what space you find yourself in, those toxic behaviors will follow you.
So don’t think just bc you left church that you’ve absolved yourself from toxicity. The call can come from inside your own house.
So don’t think just bc you left church that you’ve absolved yourself from toxicity. The call can come from inside your own house.
I’ve been recording audio of my Substack articles. A friend gave me the ultimate compliment & said I should be a professional audiobook narrator.
Omg. Not only do I love recording audio bc I get to tap into my performing background, someone thinks I should do it professionally? I feel so SEEN!🥰
Omg. Not only do I love recording audio bc I get to tap into my performing background, someone thinks I should do it professionally? I feel so SEEN!🥰
March 13, 2025 at 1:09 AM
I’ve been recording audio of my Substack articles. A friend gave me the ultimate compliment & said I should be a professional audiobook narrator.
Omg. Not only do I love recording audio bc I get to tap into my performing background, someone thinks I should do it professionally? I feel so SEEN!🥰
Omg. Not only do I love recording audio bc I get to tap into my performing background, someone thinks I should do it professionally? I feel so SEEN!🥰
I’m proud of myself for being vulnerable in sharing this experience with the world. & I’m proud I was able to articulate such a deeply profound experience, both in writing it & in recording the audio. I’d be honored if you’d read/listen.
eternallyexistential.substack.com/p/reincarnat...
eternallyexistential.substack.com/p/reincarnat...
What It Felt Like To Die
The profound experience I had in past-life regression hypnotherapy
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March 7, 2025 at 9:53 PM
I’m proud of myself for being vulnerable in sharing this experience with the world. & I’m proud I was able to articulate such a deeply profound experience, both in writing it & in recording the audio. I’d be honored if you’d read/listen.
eternallyexistential.substack.com/p/reincarnat...
eternallyexistential.substack.com/p/reincarnat...
I’ve had trichotillomania since I was 10. It’s been a coping mechanism to help me regulate through anxiety. I’ve tried to stop over the years, but I’ve just learned to accept it & now I go w/ its ebb & flow & show myself compassion.
If I have any eyelashes in this day and age, it’s truly a miracle.
If I have any eyelashes in this day and age, it’s truly a miracle.
March 3, 2025 at 4:19 PM
I’ve had trichotillomania since I was 10. It’s been a coping mechanism to help me regulate through anxiety. I’ve tried to stop over the years, but I’ve just learned to accept it & now I go w/ its ebb & flow & show myself compassion.
If I have any eyelashes in this day and age, it’s truly a miracle.
If I have any eyelashes in this day and age, it’s truly a miracle.
I’ve been journaling digitally for yrs but I’m working on getting memories out of the digital sphere. I’m slowly printing out my digital journal but moving forward, I’m back to old school pen & paper. The joy from writing with a fountain pen on the perfect textured paper is indescribable.
March 1, 2025 at 6:19 PM
I’ve been journaling digitally for yrs but I’m working on getting memories out of the digital sphere. I’m slowly printing out my digital journal but moving forward, I’m back to old school pen & paper. The joy from writing with a fountain pen on the perfect textured paper is indescribable.
Idk if the billionaires have never seen Don’t Look Up, but the rich people that think they can escape earth to start over on another planet get eaten by bird aliens in the end so…
March 1, 2025 at 4:37 PM
Idk if the billionaires have never seen Don’t Look Up, but the rich people that think they can escape earth to start over on another planet get eaten by bird aliens in the end so…
“I don’t know if what I’m doing really matters.” That’s the lie I’ve been fighting off as a creative person lately.
I know I can’t be the only one.
In a world that’s on fire, my work as a writer & storyteller feels frivolous when actual dangerous things are happening.
But the truth that I know,🧵
I know I can’t be the only one.
In a world that’s on fire, my work as a writer & storyteller feels frivolous when actual dangerous things are happening.
But the truth that I know,🧵
February 21, 2025 at 10:43 PM
“I don’t know if what I’m doing really matters.” That’s the lie I’ve been fighting off as a creative person lately.
I know I can’t be the only one.
In a world that’s on fire, my work as a writer & storyteller feels frivolous when actual dangerous things are happening.
But the truth that I know,🧵
I know I can’t be the only one.
In a world that’s on fire, my work as a writer & storyteller feels frivolous when actual dangerous things are happening.
But the truth that I know,🧵
I did past-life regression hypnotherapy. What it is and what made me decide to do it: open.substack.com/pub/eternall...
I Did Past-Life Regression Hypnotherapy
What made me decide to do this specific type of hypnotherapy
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February 21, 2025 at 4:40 PM
I did past-life regression hypnotherapy. What it is and what made me decide to do it: open.substack.com/pub/eternall...
"It was compelling. It made sense. But even though I had released my claws from their death grip on my Christian faith, I was so indoctrinated to believe that something like reincarnation does not exist. I was working on embracing mystery so I just held it…open."
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Reincarnating
How my rejection of fundamentalist religious thinking and learning to sit with new information about other spiritual beliefs changed my life
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February 7, 2025 at 8:50 PM
"It was compelling. It made sense. But even though I had released my claws from their death grip on my Christian faith, I was so indoctrinated to believe that something like reincarnation does not exist. I was working on embracing mystery so I just held it…open."
open.substack.com/pub/eternall...
open.substack.com/pub/eternall...
If you have space, I highly recommend leaving a puzzle out in a communal area of your home. We’ve done this the past few wks & it facilitates connection with people in your house. We all randomly stop to puzzle & end up spending time talking together. It also helps keep attn away frm doom scrolling.
February 5, 2025 at 2:35 AM
If you have space, I highly recommend leaving a puzzle out in a communal area of your home. We’ve done this the past few wks & it facilitates connection with people in your house. We all randomly stop to puzzle & end up spending time talking together. It also helps keep attn away frm doom scrolling.
“Yet here I am, thousands of years later, learning about this unknown, nameless “rich & powerful” ruler while carrying a basket of dirty underwear to my laundry room. It’s a stark reminder that power & wealth don’t matter at all in the grand scheme of time.”
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How To Be Remembered
A stark reminder that power, wealth, and fame don’t matter at all in the grand scheme of time
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February 3, 2025 at 4:50 PM
“Yet here I am, thousands of years later, learning about this unknown, nameless “rich & powerful” ruler while carrying a basket of dirty underwear to my laundry room. It’s a stark reminder that power & wealth don’t matter at all in the grand scheme of time.”
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open.substack.com/pub/eternall...
Been working outside this afternoon at a favorite coffee shop. Weather is stunning, bestie👇🏻is here, and I forgot my earbuds but I’m only mildly distracted.
Been working outside at a favorite coffee shop most of the day. Weather is stunning, the bestie is here, and LotR is playing in my earbuds.
That’ll do, Pig. That’ll do.
That’ll do, Pig. That’ll do.
January 31, 2025 at 9:19 PM
Been working outside this afternoon at a favorite coffee shop. Weather is stunning, bestie👇🏻is here, and I forgot my earbuds but I’m only mildly distracted.
“As I read those words aloud, it was the moment my gut said I was free to leave. I wasn’t angry. I simply realized that I no longer believed these words. I could choose to believe them. But I no longer wanted to spend my energy placing my faith in these beliefs.”
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Leaving the Faith
Why I left Christianity.
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January 31, 2025 at 9:05 PM
“As I read those words aloud, it was the moment my gut said I was free to leave. I wasn’t angry. I simply realized that I no longer believed these words. I could choose to believe them. But I no longer wanted to spend my energy placing my faith in these beliefs.”
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I told my kids (11yo twins) I was going to do a dramatic reading of the announcements in their take home folder from school.
You should know this about me: I half-ass nothing.
“Kids running club is *cue real tears* canceled this week.”
One kid laughed so hard, Dr. Pepper came out their nose.
You should know this about me: I half-ass nothing.
“Kids running club is *cue real tears* canceled this week.”
One kid laughed so hard, Dr. Pepper came out their nose.
a picture of loki with the words success written on it
Alt: a picture of loki raising his arms in triumph with the words success written on it
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January 28, 2025 at 1:25 AM
I told my kids (11yo twins) I was going to do a dramatic reading of the announcements in their take home folder from school.
You should know this about me: I half-ass nothing.
“Kids running club is *cue real tears* canceled this week.”
One kid laughed so hard, Dr. Pepper came out their nose.
You should know this about me: I half-ass nothing.
“Kids running club is *cue real tears* canceled this week.”
One kid laughed so hard, Dr. Pepper came out their nose.
I’ve been exploring around here & there’s so many familiar faces from the bird app! It makes my heart happy! I deleted my bird account when it was sold and I’ve missed having a place like what that app used to be. I met so many amazing people over there across the years. Here’s to doing that here!🍻
January 27, 2025 at 4:12 AM
I’ve been exploring around here & there’s so many familiar faces from the bird app! It makes my heart happy! I deleted my bird account when it was sold and I’ve missed having a place like what that app used to be. I met so many amazing people over there across the years. Here’s to doing that here!🍻
At the grocery store they only had 18 count eggs for $11.
I stood thinking of where I could subtract elsewhere from the grocery budget.
An older couple walked up & the wife gasped & then let out a defeated sigh.
“I guess we’re skipping eggs this week. We don’t have $11 for eggs.”
My heart broke.
I stood thinking of where I could subtract elsewhere from the grocery budget.
An older couple walked up & the wife gasped & then let out a defeated sigh.
“I guess we’re skipping eggs this week. We don’t have $11 for eggs.”
My heart broke.
January 27, 2025 at 12:39 AM
At the grocery store they only had 18 count eggs for $11.
I stood thinking of where I could subtract elsewhere from the grocery budget.
An older couple walked up & the wife gasped & then let out a defeated sigh.
“I guess we’re skipping eggs this week. We don’t have $11 for eggs.”
My heart broke.
I stood thinking of where I could subtract elsewhere from the grocery budget.
An older couple walked up & the wife gasped & then let out a defeated sigh.
“I guess we’re skipping eggs this week. We don’t have $11 for eggs.”
My heart broke.
Did I spend hours yesterday making a spreadsheet of the records I own so that I can reference it when I’m album hunting in the wild?
Yes. Yes I did.
I’ve heard about doing this through Discogs. That’s cool and all but I prefer my analog way here.😂
Yes. Yes I did.
I’ve heard about doing this through Discogs. That’s cool and all but I prefer my analog way here.😂
January 24, 2025 at 7:54 PM
Did I spend hours yesterday making a spreadsheet of the records I own so that I can reference it when I’m album hunting in the wild?
Yes. Yes I did.
I’ve heard about doing this through Discogs. That’s cool and all but I prefer my analog way here.😂
Yes. Yes I did.
I’ve heard about doing this through Discogs. That’s cool and all but I prefer my analog way here.😂
We Millennials have buried so many social platforms that we’ve invested in. When ⏰⏰ died, ppl diminished it. “It’s just an app.”
No. It’s ppls livelihoods. Its community. Both online & IRL. I met my PEOPLE, my closest friends IRL on Twitter bc of my DECADE+ engagement on that app.
What’s happening
No. It’s ppls livelihoods. Its community. Both online & IRL. I met my PEOPLE, my closest friends IRL on Twitter bc of my DECADE+ engagement on that app.
What’s happening
January 24, 2025 at 5:58 PM
We Millennials have buried so many social platforms that we’ve invested in. When ⏰⏰ died, ppl diminished it. “It’s just an app.”
No. It’s ppls livelihoods. Its community. Both online & IRL. I met my PEOPLE, my closest friends IRL on Twitter bc of my DECADE+ engagement on that app.
What’s happening
No. It’s ppls livelihoods. Its community. Both online & IRL. I met my PEOPLE, my closest friends IRL on Twitter bc of my DECADE+ engagement on that app.
What’s happening
Hi! I’m Hannah, a late-dx autistic writer who spent her first 30yrs in fundamentalist evangelical Christianity. I currently write about my deconstruction/deconversion journey & spirituality outside of high control religion.
I also love musical theatre so there will be showtunes somewhere, always.
I also love musical theatre so there will be showtunes somewhere, always.
November 25, 2024 at 5:39 AM
Hi! I’m Hannah, a late-dx autistic writer who spent her first 30yrs in fundamentalist evangelical Christianity. I currently write about my deconstruction/deconversion journey & spirituality outside of high control religion.
I also love musical theatre so there will be showtunes somewhere, always.
I also love musical theatre so there will be showtunes somewhere, always.