i'll never have the time or energy to go back to 6.1 and catch up on the story from there :')

time to bring back harrow's hidden arrogance. guy who thinks he believes in god better than anyone else. which disqualifies him from being pope i fear

in the same vein of giving harrow the legacy he deserves, we can promote him to bishop at some point. or a non-bad-end AU where he rises to archbishop rank, even. idk if he would like that though, lol. might be a bit scandalous to have a notelf head the church too

not sure yet what he could be patron saint of... those who endure. who sacrifice themselves. who hold onto faith despite everything. or people of violence who lay down their arms. who choose mercy and peace. some ideas.

i have been in the past reluctant to make my oc into any sort of real authority or legend, bc it feels too self important. but there are ppl out there with oc's who are monarchy, or bonded with gods, or literally gods, so why shouldn't i canonise my oc in my own story

harrow learning of his father's passing. too late, if i wanna project. or right in time to see him and give him his last rites, if i wanna be kinder to harrow than they were to me.

i suck at detaching myself and not taking things personally, i get genuinely distressed over all the conflicting views between clusters and sometimes even within the same cluster. it sets off my "oh god which side should i be on. have i done a bad" alarm.

i wanted to follow ppl and the people they follow too but i can't deal with all the aggressiveness right now. it's always like me thinking "this post is cool, i agree with this opinion" and someone i follow will say "that post is bad and if you agree with that opinion you're an idiot"

you'd think being out of school and unemployed would give me ample time to have my artistic renaissance but i've genuinely been struggling to get into the creative "headspace"... i'm living in a no thoughts head empty state... call it depression if it makes it make more sense

elidiharrow, in a way.

harrow @ his partner