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@harrowharuspex.bsky.social
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harrow // any pronouns // sacred demon of ungovernableness // I only like things that are fucked up and terrible // don't follow me why are people following me
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harrowharuspex.bsky.social
idk why anyone who doesn't know me from elsewhere follows me here tbh. all I do is rp art and psas and ramble semi-coherently about Brain Shit and my inability to understand like 90% of the human experience
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mobydickatsea.bsky.social
God keep me from ever completing anything.
harrowharuspex.bsky.social
I keep thinking about this. I might actually get this as a bumper sticker for my car
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mobydickatsea.bsky.social
Death seems the only desirable sequel for a career like this
harrowharuspex.bsky.social
I want to be cared for like a child
harrowharuspex.bsky.social
lately I've been feeling v alone and lonely... what I'd really like is for someone else to take the initiative planning or doing something for me but that's not really something I can ask for and everyone I know has their own stuff going on anyways
harrowharuspex.bsky.social
I'm turning 30 and I never expected to live this long and I'm not sure how to feel about the fact that I have
harrowharuspex.bsky.social
lrp you see people like "it's here, you can't stop it" but then every post from the industry is like "if you don't stop being such meanies and blocking us from using copyrighted content without paying for it we can't keep doing this ;n; " PLEASE can this bubble burst already
harrowharuspex.bsky.social
there should be more depictions of christ where he's coded as neurodivergent. the only ones I can think of off the dome are Godspell and kind of The Harrowing of Hell by Evan Dahm
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The Resurrection of the Christ: Part 1, a direct sequel to The Passion of the Christ, sounds like a fucking joke but no it's coming in 2027
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WHO WOULD WIN: Jesus of Nazareth vs The Omelas Child
harrowharuspex.bsky.social
the part that matters, in my nonbeliever opinion, is that the messiah was supposed to bring violent revolution. he chose to accept violence rather than perpetrate it, because the kingdom of heaven can't be built through violence. his suffering isn't currency; it's the price of living his beliefs
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so if THAT'S the part you emphasize, how miserable and painful of an experience it was, it falls a bit flat -- because yes, I'm sure it was, but humans do unspeakably painful and violent things to each other pretty often actually. you hear stories about POWs held for YEARS
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okay here's the thing though: I'm reasonably certain that junko furuta suffered more than jesus. there wasn't the whole "betrayed by your own people" thing but the sheer arbitrariness makes up for that, I think. I bet there are a lot of people who have suffered worse than the crucifixion
harrowharuspex.bsky.social
sorry "renouncing god" isn't accurate. in this it's specifically "asking to be delivered" so yeah it's literally "will jesus use his safeword"
harrowharuspex.bsky.social
sorry to mel gibson that his worship aid is literal torture porn to me, but there's soooo much focus on how much pain he's in and jim caviezel is cute in this
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god my letterboxd review of this is going to be the most unhinged, most on-brand thing I've ever written. this is penal substitution theory as kink. if you can take everything Heavenly Daddy gives you without using your safeword (renouncing god) you get your reward (salvation for all mankind)
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oh yeah baybee tonight's the night, I'm watching THE male torture movie of all time: MEL GIBSON'S THE PASSION OF THE CHRIST. based on everything I've heard, I'm either going to find it monotonous or I'm going to spend the whole time in a state of very unchristly excitement
harrowharuspex.bsky.social
lrp I will always rp the fantasy wheelchairs and that's a hornedhare promise
harrowharuspex.bsky.social
to a certain extent I can alter the terrain by altering the map and it feels like a hack
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it's pretty cool imo that I've mapped my own interior to the extent that I can say "this is the part of me that is convinced I don't deserve to exist, and this is the kind and gentle part of me, and if I picture them holding hands I feel better"
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just ordered a bunch of N95s... I never stopped masking but I just wear homemade cloth ones, I wanna up my game. might be silly and get a bunch of cheap stickers to decorate them with c: