Y'know I'm starting to get why people add content warnings to food because Jesus Christ every time I see photos of it right now I just feel viscerally angry

It's honestly easier to just use certain substances that make me not notice I'm hungry and I hate that. I hate that so much.

Like I knew this ahead of time. But fuck man.

Being broke is expensive as fuck. Everything requires me to have a car or be able bodied. I can't even get my EBT card or go volunteer where I COULD get food because I can't travel anywhere because I don't have money. Everything I have is going towards the motel rn and it's stressing me tf out

I have a history of an eating disorder and also being purposely starved or fed bad food. So this is all just bringing a lot of that back up and I wouldn't be surprised if I lose a bunch of weight again as a result.

Most don't have a can opener at all so how tf do you expect anyone to eat anything. I'm also restricted in some ways because certain stuff makes my stomach upset cause I have gastro issues.

Idk I just feel guilty for "having" food but not being able to get myself to eat.

I hate going to dollar tree for everything. Their food sucks most of the time. I'm starting to wonder how people expect homeless folks to eat at all when it's random shit like canned green beans or corn and a single seasoning packet maybe.

I have a can opener but it sucks and hurts to use.

Most of the stuff I have is random miscellaneous canned stuff I can't do anything with or can't stomach to begin with. Maybe I'm too picky or whatever but I'm struggling with getting myself to eat.

I have my pronouns in my username and bio in a lot of places because it's such a prevalent reoccurring issue. I should not have to keep doing this with friends.

It's still misgendering to insist on using neutral pronouns someone doesn't use. My pronouns are it/its. I will start biting.

For whatever reason there seems to be a general halt in correcting people across the board, because there's also been numerous instances where people who don't misgender me refuse to correct people who do when I'm not around. It's genuinely pissing me off

I need to get around to trying some cleaner dissos eventually cause I love how they feel but DXM makes me feel like I got put through a hydraulic press

Shame it wasn't as fun this time tbh... don't get me wrong I enjoyed it but the setting being in a motel by myself with neighbors yelling at each other made it a little odd.

Actually fell asleep towards the end there lol it was kinda funny

Body load and nausea this time was fucking crazy and is almost the sole reason it wasn't as enjoyable this time. Came on stronger than I expected.

Tripsit.me came in clutch this time around fs but man solo tripping like that is definitely a different vibe to doing it in a group

music.youtube.com/watch?v=8ElV...

Wow

I am making the drug fueled decision to freeze pop tart