heartybeanns
@heartybeannns.bsky.social
i have never had a place to upload thoughts before without it being detrimental. this seems like a blank void to scream into. do not perceive me. i am not here. i’m an ao3 author tho. you can check those out if you like. go over there.
louis losing claudia was as much about losing his connection to home as it was her. he feels the guilt of leaving nola behind in the modern day as everything changed so quickly and nobody in his life understands. armand is so old that he forgets how to feel homesick. #iwtv
November 1, 2025 at 11:08 AM
louis losing claudia was as much about losing his connection to home as it was her. he feels the guilt of leaving nola behind in the modern day as everything changed so quickly and nobody in his life understands. armand is so old that he forgets how to feel homesick. #iwtv
yaoi got my. brain befuddled
October 28, 2025 at 1:33 AM
yaoi got my. brain befuddled
they should make rotating spiral floors in communal spaces that you can put a beanbag on and have a nap during the workday
October 22, 2025 at 11:33 PM
they should make rotating spiral floors in communal spaces that you can put a beanbag on and have a nap during the workday
I have both the steadfast confidence and crippling insecurity of someone who doesn’t know what they look like. #skinnylegend #thiccqueen #nofuckingidea
October 17, 2025 at 11:31 PM
I have both the steadfast confidence and crippling insecurity of someone who doesn’t know what they look like. #skinnylegend #thiccqueen #nofuckingidea
I have never wanted to commit murder this much before, and I have regularly had dreams where I tear donald trumps face off his head and make him look at how ugly he is
October 15, 2025 at 5:28 PM
I have never wanted to commit murder this much before, and I have regularly had dreams where I tear donald trumps face off his head and make him look at how ugly he is
fuck you I’m allowed. I’m not checking that shit again.
October 15, 2025 at 5:19 PM
fuck you I’m allowed. I’m not checking that shit again.
I would like my former self to apologise to me and my old lecturers for saying ‘it’s not that hard to use subscript and superscript when you’re writing units’ SHUt UP YOU PIECE OF SHIT. YES IT IS. IT’S ONE MORE FAFF THAN I CAN DEAL WITH. FUCK OFF-uh
October 15, 2025 at 5:15 PM
I would like my former self to apologise to me and my old lecturers for saying ‘it’s not that hard to use subscript and superscript when you’re writing units’ SHUt UP YOU PIECE OF SHIT. YES IT IS. IT’S ONE MORE FAFF THAN I CAN DEAL WITH. FUCK OFF-uh
when people used to say they wanted to tear their hair out over academic shit like maths I always was like ‘haha you guys are all so funny with your exaggerations!!!! :DDD’
microsoft excel. 🫵 you and me are enemies. if I hear one more lecturer tell me that it’s the best thing to use I’m going to k
microsoft excel. 🫵 you and me are enemies. if I hear one more lecturer tell me that it’s the best thing to use I’m going to k
October 15, 2025 at 5:11 PM
when people used to say they wanted to tear their hair out over academic shit like maths I always was like ‘haha you guys are all so funny with your exaggerations!!!! :DDD’
microsoft excel. 🫵 you and me are enemies. if I hear one more lecturer tell me that it’s the best thing to use I’m going to k
microsoft excel. 🫵 you and me are enemies. if I hear one more lecturer tell me that it’s the best thing to use I’m going to k
why did no one tell me about #robron in 2015???? I was on tumblr CONSTANTLY and both of my grandmas were/are obsessed with #emmerdale?? I’ve been bewitched, body and soul and— fucking goddamnit they’re doing a coma/amnesia storyline. GET ROBERT OUT OF JAILLLLLLL
September 13, 2025 at 1:08 AM
why did no one tell me about #robron in 2015???? I was on tumblr CONSTANTLY and both of my grandmas were/are obsessed with #emmerdale?? I’ve been bewitched, body and soul and— fucking goddamnit they’re doing a coma/amnesia storyline. GET ROBERT OUT OF JAILLLLLLL
i need to fuck someone un-awkwardly to write sex scenes properly again. life was so much easier being a virgin
September 13, 2025 at 12:59 AM
i need to fuck someone un-awkwardly to write sex scenes properly again. life was so much easier being a virgin
idk how people can have their phone/ds under the covers. it’s so hot under there
September 12, 2025 at 11:57 PM
idk how people can have their phone/ds under the covers. it’s so hot under there
i want to delay tomorrow so much that it becomes the distant future
August 8, 2025 at 10:36 PM
i want to delay tomorrow so much that it becomes the distant future
telling myself ‘you’re an idiot that doesn’t deserve rights’ when I remember something embarrassing or tone deaf Ive done in the past funnily enough actually works to bring myself out of a spiral bc then I get caught thinking about which aspect of my existence would be a threat to corporate interest
August 7, 2025 at 10:03 PM
telling myself ‘you’re an idiot that doesn’t deserve rights’ when I remember something embarrassing or tone deaf Ive done in the past funnily enough actually works to bring myself out of a spiral bc then I get caught thinking about which aspect of my existence would be a threat to corporate interest
anyone who loves stomach sounds is welcomed to place their beautiful head on my lap. the only downside is the smell maybe.
August 6, 2025 at 2:52 AM
anyone who loves stomach sounds is welcomed to place their beautiful head on my lap. the only downside is the smell maybe.
every time I tell a friend something I never thought I would even utter aloud, I feel myself taking psychic damage as a piece of myself I’ve been hoarding has been placed in their hands to care for. who knows if they even will.
July 18, 2025 at 9:59 PM
every time I tell a friend something I never thought I would even utter aloud, I feel myself taking psychic damage as a piece of myself I’ve been hoarding has been placed in their hands to care for. who knows if they even will.
i consider myself a fanfic author (though I’m an avid reader) but then I realise I’ve only ever posted like 4 things (orphaned a few, shh) maybe I should start actually posting my 23546 wips
May 15, 2025 at 9:33 AM
i consider myself a fanfic author (though I’m an avid reader) but then I realise I’ve only ever posted like 4 things (orphaned a few, shh) maybe I should start actually posting my 23546 wips
uuugh my sleep has been so fucked recently. and I woke up with a leg cramp. life SUCKS
May 15, 2025 at 6:54 AM
uuugh my sleep has been so fucked recently. and I woke up with a leg cramp. life SUCKS
my friends joked about writing yuri yesterday and I took it to heart. we’re obsessed with #andors2 so I decided to write some Kleya/Vel survivors guilt. it’s weird how I can make myself sit in a scene and basically just transcribe it. I feel like what I wrote actually happened
May 15, 2025 at 6:51 AM
my friends joked about writing yuri yesterday and I took it to heart. we’re obsessed with #andors2 so I decided to write some Kleya/Vel survivors guilt. it’s weird how I can make myself sit in a scene and basically just transcribe it. I feel like what I wrote actually happened
unrelated I started taking antidepressants again today. hopefully this time they won’t interact poorly with a malignant tumour I didn’t know about lmao
May 13, 2025 at 12:12 AM
unrelated I started taking antidepressants again today. hopefully this time they won’t interact poorly with a malignant tumour I didn’t know about lmao
I’m watching things wrong recently. I can’t connect with things like I used to. I feel like a leech latching onto other peoples opinions and analyses and fixations hoping to find something. that will keep me going slightly longer. I never used to be like this.
May 13, 2025 at 12:10 AM
I’m watching things wrong recently. I can’t connect with things like I used to. I feel like a leech latching onto other peoples opinions and analyses and fixations hoping to find something. that will keep me going slightly longer. I never used to be like this.
#thevampirearmand is never actually vulnerable in all the time we see him. he is masquerading at vulnerability through many intense facets of his past that he doesn’t really feel belong to him. he tells louis things that seem like someone of his background would say. but he doesn’t feel like amadeo.
May 12, 2025 at 11:57 PM
#thevampirearmand is never actually vulnerable in all the time we see him. he is masquerading at vulnerability through many intense facets of his past that he doesn’t really feel belong to him. he tells louis things that seem like someone of his background would say. but he doesn’t feel like amadeo.
i feel like the avoidant attachment final boss some days bc all of my friends are the same. and yet I am still the one reaching out the least
May 11, 2025 at 2:56 PM
i feel like the avoidant attachment final boss some days bc all of my friends are the same. and yet I am still the one reaching out the least
blast from the past ik but #mattholt must be the biggest xenophile EVER. and it is a CRIME that he’s not getting fucked by aliens in every fic ever. he’s literally built for it. anyway watch this space.
May 8, 2025 at 2:30 PM
blast from the past ik but #mattholt must be the biggest xenophile EVER. and it is a CRIME that he’s not getting fucked by aliens in every fic ever. he’s literally built for it. anyway watch this space.
I have many thoughts about #pauldupointdulac if anybody would like to hear them. I have become fascinated with him. body and soul. (even if no one would like to hear them I will probably still talk about him)
May 4, 2025 at 10:45 PM
I have many thoughts about #pauldupointdulac if anybody would like to hear them. I have become fascinated with him. body and soul. (even if no one would like to hear them I will probably still talk about him)
starting to realise my blorbos are all consequences of my insecurities around individualism and how I lack the ‘strength’ to do things on my own. the introspective fics I shall write about this shall be legendary. #theoraeken #fivehargreeves #regulusblack #timdrake #loidforger #mysterion
May 4, 2025 at 10:31 PM
starting to realise my blorbos are all consequences of my insecurities around individualism and how I lack the ‘strength’ to do things on my own. the introspective fics I shall write about this shall be legendary. #theoraeken #fivehargreeves #regulusblack #timdrake #loidforger #mysterion