You're an inspiration and I wish you nothing but the best <3

I really appreciate how much they've done to change their ways, and the support they've given me this entire time, but that kind of hurts, I'm not sure what to do about it. It creates a break in trust and closeness that you can't mend without them changing, and I don't see that happening soon ): 4/4

That hurts so much, but it nothing on the level of being kicked out, or, Yoba forbid, being put into a conversion camp. My parents do more for me than most other parents (in part due to my multiple disabilities) so I feel really conflicted about my feelings towards them. 3/x

my problems just don't feel like they are that important or worth noting really. I just found out one of my parents didn't actually want me on HRT and just happened to mention how they wished I wasn't on estrogen because I've been having more mental breakdowns. That hurts so much, but 2/x

I think that paints a visceral mental image. I shows exactly what is being done for those still unable to see it. They know what they're doing and they don't think it's wrong. They are telling everyone this is what they are doing, there is no misunderstanding. This is what they want clear as crystal

This isn't to say that accidents can't happen. When it is saying is that something being accidental doesn't discount the material harm done. To tell people you actively advocate for the extinction of that you aren't doing this because you personally hate them doesn't really change what you're doing.

This is a key component to modern philosophical pragmatism. Everyone's actions -and inactions- have goals, even if you yourself don't know what those goals are. Just because you don't believe in your heart-of-hearts that Hitler was good actually doesn't discount the very real Hitler apologia you do.

In conclusion: life gets tough, but we carry on. Accepting where I am doesn't mean things won't change, it means changing what I can expect from myself. It's going to take lots of time and effort but with each day I believe I can be better, even if some days it just means surviving until bedtime

If I never try to be happy then I never have to question my unhappiness. I don't have to directly face the very real lack of power I have over most things in my life if I simply never leave the box I've made for myself. Even if it's small or unsafe it's stable, or at least feels stable, known, simpl

The best answer I have for right now is it highlights not just my lack of control but utter powerlessness. If I don't make plans I never have to break the illusion of control by having to cancel. If you never put yourself out there you never fail. If you never push your limits they can be anything

No one is holding me to this standard but me. People are actively wanting me to tell them that this is too much when it is too much for me. So why do I feel so awful about it? Why am I so upset that I simply have to change plans from one day to another? Why does my brain treat this like a big deal??

And of course my friend whom I was going to visit knows that I am disabled and I have no doubt they wouldn't want me to completely destroy my physical state just to visit for 1hr. I know this, but I still feel so bad and sad for having to cancel. I let them down. I made plans and now have to cancel

The part I need to focus on right now is that I need to be able to let people know when I can't do something. I was going to meet a friend this week but my sleep is at such a bad time I can't actually meet with them. This saddens me greatly but I need to allow myself to heal and work through this