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@hibeems.bsky.social
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Begging Caleb Love and Deepspace for just one chance !!!!! 😭💧🥺😢😢🫶😢🙏
😝🎂🍎
basically a vent spot with a side of thirsting for a fictional gemini man, so I don't recommend following lmao
🌌🪅🫧🌻 ❇ 🇲🇽 ❇ 🍃😶🌫️🫰 ❇ ♏ ❇ INFP
⚜️
Begging Caleb Love and Deepspace for just one chance !!!!! 😭💧🥺😢😢🫶😢🙏
😝🎂🍎
basically a vent spot with a side of thirsting for a fictional gemini man, so I don't recommend following lmao
If I had just... Chosen to sleep in... I could have avoided All Of It...
January 22, 2026 at 5:24 PM
If I had just... Chosen to sleep in... I could have avoided All Of It...
I should have stayed the fuck home. Oh my fucking god. First this fuckass phone screen breaks with a drop. Then they tell me at work that they want a big project done by tomorrow. Then they tell me they're forcing me to work with these kids whether we like it or not. Holding back tears at work lmfao
January 22, 2026 at 5:24 PM
I should have stayed the fuck home. Oh my fucking god. First this fuckass phone screen breaks with a drop. Then they tell me at work that they want a big project done by tomorrow. Then they tell me they're forcing me to work with these kids whether we like it or not. Holding back tears at work lmfao
Deleted my TikTok account... It got me through covid & everything that followed... Shit hurts more than I thought, but I guess I just gotta see it as the end of another era, like when we left Tumblr for Twitter back in the day... Nothing comes quite close to tt tho </3 might go back to Tumblr lmfao.
January 22, 2026 at 8:17 AM
Deleted my TikTok account... It got me through covid & everything that followed... Shit hurts more than I thought, but I guess I just gotta see it as the end of another era, like when we left Tumblr for Twitter back in the day... Nothing comes quite close to tt tho </3 might go back to Tumblr lmfao.
Dawg I HATE visiting the specialist
(1) She is scary
(2) She is patronizing
(3) She is an hour late
(4) She is scary :-(
(1) She is scary
(2) She is patronizing
(3) She is an hour late
(4) She is scary :-(
December 31, 2025 at 7:30 PM
Dawg I HATE visiting the specialist
(1) She is scary
(2) She is patronizing
(3) She is an hour late
(4) She is scary :-(
(1) She is scary
(2) She is patronizing
(3) She is an hour late
(4) She is scary :-(
So I'm finally getting back into art (at odd hours bc I have no privacy in this house) and my brother ruins my painting plans for the next 10 hours because he *wanted* to get too high to move off my couch (without asking if it was okay to overstay his welcome in my space tonight 💀) AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
December 7, 2025 at 9:05 AM
So I'm finally getting back into art (at odd hours bc I have no privacy in this house) and my brother ruins my painting plans for the next 10 hours because he *wanted* to get too high to move off my couch (without asking if it was okay to overstay his welcome in my space tonight 💀) AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Sorry lol that was dramatic
But I am disturbingly sad these days and I can't pinpoint any one reason why
So I guess the obvious answer is All Of The Above :•)
But I am disturbingly sad these days and I can't pinpoint any one reason why
So I guess the obvious answer is All Of The Above :•)
December 3, 2025 at 4:40 PM
Sorry lol that was dramatic
But I am disturbingly sad these days and I can't pinpoint any one reason why
So I guess the obvious answer is All Of The Above :•)
But I am disturbingly sad these days and I can't pinpoint any one reason why
So I guess the obvious answer is All Of The Above :•)
lol. I wonder whether this is seasonal depression brought on by the tule fog, depression as a medication side-effect, PMDD depression, or a PTSD flare-up 💀
Regardless, this is one of the worst *lows* i have ever felt. Like. Genuinely want to be put out of my misery if it means i don't have to feel!!
Regardless, this is one of the worst *lows* i have ever felt. Like. Genuinely want to be put out of my misery if it means i don't have to feel!!
December 3, 2025 at 4:33 PM
lol. I wonder whether this is seasonal depression brought on by the tule fog, depression as a medication side-effect, PMDD depression, or a PTSD flare-up 💀
Regardless, this is one of the worst *lows* i have ever felt. Like. Genuinely want to be put out of my misery if it means i don't have to feel!!
Regardless, this is one of the worst *lows* i have ever felt. Like. Genuinely want to be put out of my misery if it means i don't have to feel!!
I have to update my age on all my fuckass profiles 😭 hate this for me 🥺
November 19, 2025 at 7:17 AM
I have to update my age on all my fuckass profiles 😭 hate this for me 🥺
oh my god I just realized I was being teased for the way I speak that one time. oh man, why would my brain lob that memory at me (out of all of them??) with cursed hindsight? 😭
October 21, 2025 at 6:14 AM
oh my god I just realized I was being teased for the way I speak that one time. oh man, why would my brain lob that memory at me (out of all of them??) with cursed hindsight? 😭
My brain just served me the WEIRDEST memory montage. I think every single best friend I had over the course of my life was neurodivergent 💀 it makes so much fucking sense. they wouldn't've been able to stand me otherwise. I've always been an obsessive little freak. Freaks recognize freaks 💀
September 24, 2025 at 3:41 PM
My brain just served me the WEIRDEST memory montage. I think every single best friend I had over the course of my life was neurodivergent 💀 it makes so much fucking sense. they wouldn't've been able to stand me otherwise. I've always been an obsessive little freak. Freaks recognize freaks 💀
Cheap pizza hits different after barely eating for almost 48 hours 😭🤌
September 14, 2025 at 12:56 AM
Cheap pizza hits different after barely eating for almost 48 hours 😭🤌
Also judging by the blood tests they ordered, my clinic doc didn't believe me when I said I've never ⬛⬛ lmfao. Idk whether to be flattered or offended 💀
September 13, 2025 at 9:54 AM
Also judging by the blood tests they ordered, my clinic doc didn't believe me when I said I've never ⬛⬛ lmfao. Idk whether to be flattered or offended 💀
Ykw though? Fuck it. If the ⬛ and the CT scan didn't find any hemorrhaging then I'm not dying (for the foreseeable future). I'm just unlucky as hell.
September 13, 2025 at 9:47 AM
Ykw though? Fuck it. If the ⬛ and the CT scan didn't find any hemorrhaging then I'm not dying (for the foreseeable future). I'm just unlucky as hell.
Wish they'd've let me talk to the team treating me rather than throwing antibiotics at me without explaining their reasoning 😭
September 13, 2025 at 9:44 AM
Wish they'd've let me talk to the team treating me rather than throwing antibiotics at me without explaining their reasoning 😭
I think my medical anxiety may have affected my treatment today.. infection was assumed because of borderline high temp, rapid heart rate, and elevated wbc. But stress can explain 2/3 of those. And the "fever" is probably because I took a fucking bus to get to the hospital in the summer and it's hot
September 13, 2025 at 9:43 AM
I think my medical anxiety may have affected my treatment today.. infection was assumed because of borderline high temp, rapid heart rate, and elevated wbc. But stress can explain 2/3 of those. And the "fever" is probably because I took a fucking bus to get to the hospital in the summer and it's hot
Went through all that fresh hell for what ?? .. to be told to take Tylenol and go back to the witch that sent me to them in the first place?? Literally perish. Today was fucking awful. staff was lovely. but damn they don't mind maiming you to draw blood/put in a second (pointless) central line lmfao
September 13, 2025 at 9:04 AM
Went through all that fresh hell for what ?? .. to be told to take Tylenol and go back to the witch that sent me to them in the first place?? Literally perish. Today was fucking awful. staff was lovely. but damn they don't mind maiming you to draw blood/put in a second (pointless) central line lmfao
I mean it might still be a misdiagnosis bc everything came back """fine/normal""" but to figure that out for sure I'd need a laparoscopic procedure and ion want one lol... They still recommend seeing a gyno.. just let me die bruh, i hate that plastic thing. Hurts bad, bad stretch, miserable feeling
September 13, 2025 at 6:13 AM
I mean it might still be a misdiagnosis bc everything came back """fine/normal""" but to figure that out for sure I'd need a laparoscopic procedure and ion want one lol... They still recommend seeing a gyno.. just let me die bruh, i hate that plastic thing. Hurts bad, bad stretch, miserable feeling
ts has my watch telling me my resting heart rate is too high GEE I WONDER WHY LOL
September 12, 2025 at 9:11 PM
ts has my watch telling me my resting heart rate is too high GEE I WONDER WHY LOL
should I post a hopital selfie on my ig story later to scare the people I don't talk to anymore... haven't posted there since covid days... It would be kinda funny wouldn't it...?
September 12, 2025 at 9:02 PM
should I post a hopital selfie on my ig story later to scare the people I don't talk to anymore... haven't posted there since covid days... It would be kinda funny wouldn't it...?
Nintendo locking the next Fire Emblem game to the Switch 2 is my last fucking straw lol. I was gonna buy it and Tomodachi Life as like. Farewell purchases if they were both on the Switch 1 lol. I don't even wanna buy Tomodachi Life anymore. I'm done with this fuckass company 💀
September 12, 2025 at 4:07 PM
Nintendo locking the next Fire Emblem game to the Switch 2 is my last fucking straw lol. I was gonna buy it and Tomodachi Life as like. Farewell purchases if they were both on the Switch 1 lol. I don't even wanna buy Tomodachi Life anymore. I'm done with this fuckass company 💀
Need to let out a good hysterical laugh bc I'm stressed and spiraling but my brother considers my living space *his* so I must suppress the urge with full body shakes like an anxious small dog and try to sleep off my organ's futile but incredibly persistent attempt to exsanguinate me lol
September 10, 2025 at 9:34 PM
Need to let out a good hysterical laugh bc I'm stressed and spiraling but my brother considers my living space *his* so I must suppress the urge with full body shakes like an anxious small dog and try to sleep off my organ's futile but incredibly persistent attempt to exsanguinate me lol
Doctor with a whole ass medical degree really told an 18 year old "if you don't plan on using it any time soon, you can just let that organ rot. problem for future you haha" like lmao??
September 9, 2025 at 4:06 PM
Doctor with a whole ass medical degree really told an 18 year old "if you don't plan on using it any time soon, you can just let that organ rot. problem for future you haha" like lmao??
I've known something inside me was broken since I was 14, but I didn't try telling a doctor until I was older. When I did, he didn't want to figure out what was wrong. He told me I was lucky. That unless I was trying to ◼️◼️, I should just count my blessings. So here I am.
Counting my blessings.
Counting my blessings.
September 9, 2025 at 3:56 PM
I've known something inside me was broken since I was 14, but I didn't try telling a doctor until I was older. When I did, he didn't want to figure out what was wrong. He told me I was lucky. That unless I was trying to ◼️◼️, I should just count my blessings. So here I am.
Counting my blessings.
Counting my blessings.
Can't tell if this is the consequence of aging and ignoring a dysfunctional body part, or if something actually abnormal is going on. Unfortunately I don't think it'll kill me. It's just the kind of chronic condition that'll never go away unless I take drastic (surgical) measures, which... HA. Haha.
September 9, 2025 at 3:47 PM
Can't tell if this is the consequence of aging and ignoring a dysfunctional body part, or if something actually abnormal is going on. Unfortunately I don't think it'll kill me. It's just the kind of chronic condition that'll never go away unless I take drastic (surgical) measures, which... HA. Haha.