To make and maintain the friendships and that no one is willing to meet me halfway. I find it very sad.

Yes i can try to rekindle some of it, but for the most part i feel like the local community has closed itself off. The little pods that have maintained are not accepting new members and i no longer have the job that allowed me to facilitate those interactions. I feel like i o longer have the skill-

I miss the casual MTG prerealeses we had. I miss me and my sister being besties. I kinda miss not having kids despite me loving and always wanting them. I miss being confident when it comes to talking to people.