Daddy

I forgot how soft my insides could be. I love deeply, but I mourn deeper, and when I dig into myself I always find that squishy pit of loneliness at my center.

So I lay here, 1am, missing him knowing I don't, and won't, and can't, have him the way I want. I lay here curled into a ball, a hard shell, trying to hold the lonely tender parts of me together. I've been alone for soo long I convinced myself that I was strong. I've been alone for soo long that