emira: i hope you know that i write not because i love writing, but because i love you. i write it for you. i also write because i'm scared. i've been trapped in a hole for so long, i'm not sure if i'm still inside it. and i'm scared of going back. i'm scared if we'll never meet again if i go back.

emira: we'll always be. forever.

emira: why do i have to like, be conscious all the time, i'm not conscious only when i'm not conscious. i don't like it. i want to be peacefully asleep but conscious forever.
hazel: i would be sad.
emira: we're both together in our dream.
hazel: will we get married in our dreams too? *laughs*

ts probs corny ash

emira: sometimes, i just wake up, and i feel like my memory was implanted yesterday. maybe i question too much.
hazel: don't overthink it, okay?
emira: thank you for being here, el. it means so much to me.
hazel: you're very welcome, em. so uh, anyways, movie tonight?
emira: hell yeah of course!

emira: i love you so much...
hazel: i know, silly.
emira: i really mean it. i love you so much. i'm scared to lose you...
hazel: i feel the same too, em. i love you too.
emira: what is my life about... el?
hazel: we're not meant to figure it out... not now.
emira: it doesn't feel real. i'm scared.

I CAN'T SLEEP!!!!!!!! WHAT DO I DO!!! THOSE SUBWAY DOUBLE CHOCOLATE COOKIES MAN!!!!!

*emira goes home*
hazel: where did u go...
emira: js chillin w my boss
*hazel gives emira a hug*
emira: i.. need to tell you sumn
hazel: y-yes?
emira: i.. i didn't mean to hurt you.. idk how much you spent for the gift... but ik you care sm abt me... why'd you want an ungrateful person like me...

rina: hell nah!! ts my child now!! he'll carry on my legacy or smth
emira: that's cool ig... what's hims name
rina: idk wdyt
emira: idk dude arent ur supposed to name him or smth does he even have an id
rina: hims js a kid let them be kids...
emira: *sighs* ig...
rina: btw come early next week

rina: so uh. konnichiwa *sips hot choccy*
emira: idk man.. tough day..
rina: yeah i get it... *sips hot choccy*
child: mom it's cold
rina: uh. turn on the heater or sumn
emira: who kid is that
rina: pft. idk. i found hims in a shoebox near the factory
emira: u didnt hand hims to the authority or smt

emira: forgot my coat *gets back to take her coat* stupid ass mas!! *kicks snow*

*emira pauses for a while before she lies down in the snow*

"hohoho!!!"

emira: santer?
rina: no its ur boss tf is u doing out here
emira: idk.. lemme think abt it...
rina: think abt it indoor it's cold outsie i think

imma overdose on piracetam bc remembering things i currently don't have access to makes me sad