Kuan Min Huang
@huangkm.bsky.social
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Taiwanese in Toronto She/her 👵🐷 I do art for myself, please unfollow Under process of healing Like illustration and dark art fantasy 🚫 NFT / AI https://www.instagram.com/kuan_paint/ Twitter:@huangkm
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Thank you so much, Julia! Hope you are doing well as well.
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It would be tough, but I believe as long as I am not sick, I can still work till I die, I guess. But now I need time to heal and appreciate people support.
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It has been quite a depressing and stressful experience for me. I am currently trying to slow things down, learn to be healthy, and stay in the present moment.
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I am packing and organizing my stuff for the move; it would help me to save a few hundred bucks for rent. I would share the place with a Chinese landlord lady. I wish we could get along so I can stay a bit longer to save more money and slowly figure things out.
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I purchased lots of art books from industry and some novels in the past, I realized I really didn't need some of them and wasted money on things I don't really enjoy in the first place. Organizing books, makes me understand more about books I like rather than collecting them.
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I just started packing my books for moving. I found out the art book I got for 12 kingdoms. One of my most favorite fantasy novel series I read in high school. The illustrations are just stunning from artist akihiro yamada. I feel glad I got them and it makes me really happy.
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As I wrote this personal story, I am not asking for any pity. I write it to remind myself that I still have to work on lots of things. I am getting more comfortable to express myself publicly It is already a huge stepping stone for me.
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I don't know how long will take to me to get better, but I am trying every day so I can survive in this world.
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Also, I wish I had started eating healthier and saving every penny I had earlier, learning how to invest or read more books and listen podcasts, exercising, etc. It is a lonely journey since those habits were never taught by my family in the first place.
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While watching parents aging, I realize it is not easy to let go of all the hate, but I realize without them I would have never gotten the chance in the first place.
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All I can do now is learn to take care of myself first so I have more positive energy to give back to my family. It is the hardest journey because struggling is real.
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Now, I saw how much they were struggling, and they never got the chance to grow past their own shadow, which is hurting me because if I stay, it will destroy me; if I leave them completely, I will feel huge shame and guilt.
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As a lower-class immigrant growing up, I strived to overcome all the obstacles and am currently in the process of healing. Every time I went home, I saw my family give me a complicated feeling, which used to be hate and anger of neglect and abandonment.