on a mini vaca with no scale makes me wanna die I can't see the calories for anything I'm in hell a little bit

seeing the lack of interest develop in real time hurts so bad. at least I'm losing what I've gained back. let me starve until I die.

there's nothing better than knowing this is all for nothing

at least the reminders help me stay on track 🫰🏻

just dreamt I ate so much meat and bread

I'm going to break my fast at 12:21, and I'm going to eat a sweet potato. I'm actually craving it so bad but I still wanna make it as low cal as possible because I'll probably eat later

in absolute misery once more so low appetite, I am so back

I hope I get so small I die, genuinely. I don't think I'll ever be happy lol

I need to get out of the 140lb JAIL LET ME OUT LET ME OUT

nothing triggers me anymore other than my old body checks when I was at my lowest. what's fucked up to me is that I was never underweight

I want to chew and spit an entire cake

today I ate 5 pieces of lindt 80% dark chocolate, a tbsp of peanut butter, 2 onion rings, fries, and a hamburger. I'm worried about gaining from that but idk. tomorrow I'm supposed to go out to breakfast with friends and it scares me because I've been mostly omading lately

I need some mutuals on here so I don't feel so alone pls follow me if you're not a minor or weird. I'm pro recovery and not fatphobic c: #edsky #caterpillarsky

I don't want to know anymore but at the same time, hearing details about it fuels me. I hate myself more and more. I wish I could starve until I die, to be honest.

my self hatred has really made it easier to starve lately. I've dropped about 2kg in the past week or two because I think about shit that genuinely makes me want to die and all of a sudden I don't feel the need to eat