Again! :D

I had a gripe about this last year I feel, kinda a popularity contest more than anything. Putting yourself on the roster and getting ur following to vote for you; more than having a committee to find and judge applicants or people they find.

Can't be far from here

Its the one from that guy falling thru the ceiling

All I can truly say is I'm sorry for how I acted; I had no control or awareness that I wasn't normal and everyone didnt feel the same hurt or emotions as me. I knew I was abit different but not as badly as this. And I beg for another chance from anyone who is willing now that I will be medicated. 15

Drugs for adhd would ruin my personality and make me into a robot, making me fear losing myself to trying to do something about it. Finally doing an finding out whats wrong with me and wanting direly to fix it, maybe too late. I know many People dont like me now and 14/15

My mother was extremely emotionally abusive, her also being bipolar, but a much worse and more unaware case than me; living with her made my mind able to control many of the tendencies that eventually would show later after I moved away. She taught me that any sort of mood stabilizers or 13/?

And I truly beg for forgiveness from friends who I may have slighted or done wrong without even realizing what I was doing. Seeing it as a logical approach or the right way. Lashing back when I was yelled at or felt backed into a corner (feeling constantly backed into a corner my whole life) 12/?

Small things or true trauma from the past floating to the surface and adding to the mix of uncertainty and confusion. I have truly been hurt by monsters in my life. But i have also been made into a confused beast that doesnt understand things the same as others. 11/?

That I was certain they just didn't understand. Often being extremely misunderstood and having friends get angry with me when I would do something that I thought would fix the entire thing. Emotionally I'd be torn apart unable to understand why I felt so hurt and betrayed, falling apart from 10/?

Explain myself and why I felt a way. Making people upset with me for over explaining a point that I felt they didnt understand me on, having never had to say anything at all. Friends getting angry or annoyed from this or accusing me of being "guilty" because I'd over explain a situation 9/?

And people I truly cared about in my physical pain and anguish. Getting sad for me is an extremely painful experience, something that I think needs to be said ripping me apart constantly and making me explosive without realizing that it isnt socially normal, feeling it right to reach out and 8/?