Why am I insane why am I actually going insane rn these meds better fucking LOCK IN THIS INSTANT

It doesn't even talk to me that often GO AWAYYYYYYY

TikTok tutorials save me..,,,,

I need a new fucking hobby, or therapy, or both

Lord save me lord save me lord save meeewe

AND AGAIN I KNOW ITS STUPID I know he's allowed to have other friends and see other people blah blah blah IM A CRAZY BITCH OKAY I dont even want to feel like this im just scared that we will inevitably drift or fall apart like they all fuckijg have

But lately its been spending so much time with him and taking away HIS own time for me and such which makes me tweak just a bit, just a bit,,,,,

I dont even DISLIKE it if anything I'm intimated by it but regardless I'd like to get to know it more,,,,,

I know its fucking unhealthy I know its wrong I know I shouldn't feel like this but when mentions it I feel my eye twitchinf.....

Please don't be problematic either, please dont fuckinf be problematic or im committing matar

Call it trauma or something idk but anything we have some sort of conflict my anxiety likes to spiral and assume im gonna go back to being alone and all that Bullshit

I know WHY but I lowkey put more effort in the gracepa one compared to the other so 😔😔😔😔