Robin
@incompletecricket.bsky.social
Documenting who I am so I can figure it out. Still not sure at 40. Just sick of all the masking. Maybe I'll see a pattern. So this is a journal, I suppose.
It makes me so uncomfortable that microdosing mushrooms is the only way that works to shake off the melancholy.
Sometimes I wait months. But to be a productive member of society, requires it at the moment.
One day I'll find a more lasting solution without external substances.
Sometimes I wait months. But to be a productive member of society, requires it at the moment.
One day I'll find a more lasting solution without external substances.
January 18, 2026 at 10:52 AM
It makes me so uncomfortable that microdosing mushrooms is the only way that works to shake off the melancholy.
Sometimes I wait months. But to be a productive member of society, requires it at the moment.
One day I'll find a more lasting solution without external substances.
Sometimes I wait months. But to be a productive member of society, requires it at the moment.
One day I'll find a more lasting solution without external substances.
Light tends to give me such glimmers.
The way drops of water hanging from the bare honeylocust twigs can catch the pinks and oranges of a dawn light not even yet risen.
Like little stars amongst dark branches.
They see the light before I do.
#Glimmer #Beauty #GoodMorning
The way drops of water hanging from the bare honeylocust twigs can catch the pinks and oranges of a dawn light not even yet risen.
Like little stars amongst dark branches.
They see the light before I do.
#Glimmer #Beauty #GoodMorning
January 18, 2026 at 7:58 AM
Light tends to give me such glimmers.
The way drops of water hanging from the bare honeylocust twigs can catch the pinks and oranges of a dawn light not even yet risen.
Like little stars amongst dark branches.
They see the light before I do.
#Glimmer #Beauty #GoodMorning
The way drops of water hanging from the bare honeylocust twigs can catch the pinks and oranges of a dawn light not even yet risen.
Like little stars amongst dark branches.
They see the light before I do.
#Glimmer #Beauty #GoodMorning
Today, I stepped out onto the balcony. A long black dress with no sleeves. It's cold. About 2°C. The fog hovering through the trees. My long hair not even up in a bun. Just down. A moment of silence. Then a flock of Jackdaws fly up over my head.
Like an invitation,
pulling me into the forest.
Like an invitation,
pulling me into the forest.
January 18, 2026 at 7:24 AM
Today, I stepped out onto the balcony. A long black dress with no sleeves. It's cold. About 2°C. The fog hovering through the trees. My long hair not even up in a bun. Just down. A moment of silence. Then a flock of Jackdaws fly up over my head.
Like an invitation,
pulling me into the forest.
Like an invitation,
pulling me into the forest.
It's unnerving thinking about how our dislikes and likes are influenced by others.
At the end of the day, it feels like our #authenticity is more about the *consent* of influence rather than forming ideas ourselves.
Is this #psychology or #philosophy? Sometimes the line seems smudged.
At the end of the day, it feels like our #authenticity is more about the *consent* of influence rather than forming ideas ourselves.
Is this #psychology or #philosophy? Sometimes the line seems smudged.
January 18, 2026 at 6:49 AM
It's unnerving thinking about how our dislikes and likes are influenced by others.
At the end of the day, it feels like our #authenticity is more about the *consent* of influence rather than forming ideas ourselves.
Is this #psychology or #philosophy? Sometimes the line seems smudged.
At the end of the day, it feels like our #authenticity is more about the *consent* of influence rather than forming ideas ourselves.
Is this #psychology or #philosophy? Sometimes the line seems smudged.
Learning how to exist without the constant vigilance of productivity is bonkers. I really have no idea how. #Anxiety #Scapegoat #NoRelaxOnlyDo
January 17, 2026 at 7:33 PM
Learning how to exist without the constant vigilance of productivity is bonkers. I really have no idea how. #Anxiety #Scapegoat #NoRelaxOnlyDo
I wish I could paint #surrealism. It's such another level of symbolic creativity. #ArtSky
I have some ideas. Maybe I could pick up the brushes again. But do I have the patience anymore?
I have some ideas. Maybe I could pick up the brushes again. But do I have the patience anymore?
January 17, 2026 at 7:29 PM
I wish I could paint #surrealism. It's such another level of symbolic creativity. #ArtSky
I have some ideas. Maybe I could pick up the brushes again. But do I have the patience anymore?
I have some ideas. Maybe I could pick up the brushes again. But do I have the patience anymore?
I fully believe that the scene in "The Addam's Family" where Morticia is cutting off the rose heads is a nod to the opening scene of Theda Bara in "A Fool There Was". 1915. One of the first screen fem fatale "vamps" and mystery icons.
#SilentFilm #ThedaBara #HorrorSky
#SilentFilm #ThedaBara #HorrorSky
January 17, 2026 at 1:19 PM
I fully believe that the scene in "The Addam's Family" where Morticia is cutting off the rose heads is a nod to the opening scene of Theda Bara in "A Fool There Was". 1915. One of the first screen fem fatale "vamps" and mystery icons.
#SilentFilm #ThedaBara #HorrorSky
#SilentFilm #ThedaBara #HorrorSky
Saw the first pied wagtail in the garden today. Usually they only get here in March. It's odd to see. #ClimateChange
January 17, 2026 at 11:33 AM
Saw the first pied wagtail in the garden today. Usually they only get here in March. It's odd to see. #ClimateChange
Sometimes I feel like we strive to have the same qualities in ourselves, as adults, as those we needed to feel safe as children but were denied growing up.
Growing up to be who we needed then.
#Musings #MentalHealth
Growing up to be who we needed then.
#Musings #MentalHealth
January 17, 2026 at 8:55 AM
Sometimes I feel like we strive to have the same qualities in ourselves, as adults, as those we needed to feel safe as children but were denied growing up.
Growing up to be who we needed then.
#Musings #MentalHealth
Growing up to be who we needed then.
#Musings #MentalHealth
The way the crocuses and narcissus reach their green fingers out of the freshly melted snow.
A bit of a betrayal, this false spring. I know we are about to have a second winter.
I hope they are up for it.
#Musings
A bit of a betrayal, this false spring. I know we are about to have a second winter.
I hope they are up for it.
#Musings
January 17, 2026 at 8:50 AM
The way the crocuses and narcissus reach their green fingers out of the freshly melted snow.
A bit of a betrayal, this false spring. I know we are about to have a second winter.
I hope they are up for it.
#Musings
A bit of a betrayal, this false spring. I know we are about to have a second winter.
I hope they are up for it.
#Musings
I've been through it. I've been through it all. Seriously.
And even though I have been through so many acts others would dub as "evil" and have been ripped asunder in every way imaginable,
I still feel people are hurting rather than inherently bad.
And even though I have been through so many acts others would dub as "evil" and have been ripped asunder in every way imaginable,
I still feel people are hurting rather than inherently bad.
January 17, 2026 at 7:37 AM
I've been through it. I've been through it all. Seriously.
And even though I have been through so many acts others would dub as "evil" and have been ripped asunder in every way imaginable,
I still feel people are hurting rather than inherently bad.
And even though I have been through so many acts others would dub as "evil" and have been ripped asunder in every way imaginable,
I still feel people are hurting rather than inherently bad.
This is adorable 🖤
#PhantomsFriday
The Old Stone House (1913) by Walter de la Mare. This text is from a 1925 Henry Holt reprint.
Art credit in alt text.
The Old Stone House (1913) by Walter de la Mare. This text is from a 1925 Henry Holt reprint.
Art credit in alt text.
January 17, 2026 at 7:28 AM
This is adorable 🖤
January 17, 2026 at 7:20 AM
Meaning doesn’t come from fixing the self.
It comes from allowing the self to exist as it is.
#MentalHealth #Perfectionism
It comes from allowing the self to exist as it is.
#MentalHealth #Perfectionism
January 16, 2026 at 5:03 PM
Meaning doesn’t come from fixing the self.
It comes from allowing the self to exist as it is.
#MentalHealth #Perfectionism
It comes from allowing the self to exist as it is.
#MentalHealth #Perfectionism
I love #folklore studies so freaking much. It's like escape from reality, understanding human nature at the deepest levels, AND learning more about your Self all at once. Anthropology, psychology, sociology, plus fun, epic stories... all rolled into one.
January 16, 2026 at 12:28 PM
I love #folklore studies so freaking much. It's like escape from reality, understanding human nature at the deepest levels, AND learning more about your Self all at once. Anthropology, psychology, sociology, plus fun, epic stories... all rolled into one.
Why do most of the #neurodivergent people I know have chronic health issues. Like. PCOS, EDS, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Lupus.... it's like the early development focused on the mind and totally forgot about building a solid body. 🫠
January 16, 2026 at 11:13 AM
Why do most of the #neurodivergent people I know have chronic health issues. Like. PCOS, EDS, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Lupus.... it's like the early development focused on the mind and totally forgot about building a solid body. 🫠
Like REALLY niche subjects would be awesome for this.
There should be an Internet rule similar to #rule34. Like " #rule42: If it exists, there are #neurodivergent people who are obsessed with every aspect of it, thus making them a gold mine of #information about it."
January 16, 2026 at 10:57 AM
Like REALLY niche subjects would be awesome for this.
Collecting the various labels listed under the #neurodivergent umbrella like pokemon. Gotta catch 'em all.
January 16, 2026 at 10:52 AM
Collecting the various labels listed under the #neurodivergent umbrella like pokemon. Gotta catch 'em all.
How do friendships work.
Do you all have some sort of calendar set up where you go, "Check-In with Fred -> repeat every 3 weeks."
I swear I could know a pretty cool person for years but completely forget they exist for months.
#autistic #friendship #WhatWouldYouDo
Do you all have some sort of calendar set up where you go, "Check-In with Fred -> repeat every 3 weeks."
I swear I could know a pretty cool person for years but completely forget they exist for months.
#autistic #friendship #WhatWouldYouDo
January 16, 2026 at 10:45 AM
How do friendships work.
Do you all have some sort of calendar set up where you go, "Check-In with Fred -> repeat every 3 weeks."
I swear I could know a pretty cool person for years but completely forget they exist for months.
#autistic #friendship #WhatWouldYouDo
Do you all have some sort of calendar set up where you go, "Check-In with Fred -> repeat every 3 weeks."
I swear I could know a pretty cool person for years but completely forget they exist for months.
#autistic #friendship #WhatWouldYouDo
The fact that I was early diagnosed in the middle of the triple ven diagram of Gifted, Autistic, and ADHD is why I have so many 8th house placements 🫠🙃 #astrology
Like, this is the "as within, so without" of this mess.
Like, this is the "as within, so without" of this mess.
January 16, 2026 at 10:26 AM
The fact that I was early diagnosed in the middle of the triple ven diagram of Gifted, Autistic, and ADHD is why I have so many 8th house placements 🫠🙃 #astrology
Like, this is the "as within, so without" of this mess.
Like, this is the "as within, so without" of this mess.
If you are part of the #gifted #neurodivergency, you're going to fall into nihilistic depression more than other types. You can't explain yourself out of it. That's a trap.
You have to MOVE.
Anywhere. Even if it doesn't make sense or isn't perfect or doesn't have "potential".
You gotta move.
You have to MOVE.
Anywhere. Even if it doesn't make sense or isn't perfect or doesn't have "potential".
You gotta move.
January 16, 2026 at 10:05 AM
If you are part of the #gifted #neurodivergency, you're going to fall into nihilistic depression more than other types. You can't explain yourself out of it. That's a trap.
You have to MOVE.
Anywhere. Even if it doesn't make sense or isn't perfect or doesn't have "potential".
You gotta move.
You have to MOVE.
Anywhere. Even if it doesn't make sense or isn't perfect or doesn't have "potential".
You gotta move.
January 16, 2026 at 9:18 AM