loopy loony tunes | edsky
@insanitydiaries.bsky.social
mid 20s. audhd, bpd, cptsd & ed(s) dx
any pronouns. european. TW for EVERYTHING. potential SH urges/action, SUI ideation
(attempting AGAIN) drvg addiction recovery
mentions ED, potential wl & measurements
maybe abuse mention but w TW
any pronouns. european. TW for EVERYTHING. potential SH urges/action, SUI ideation
(attempting AGAIN) drvg addiction recovery
mentions ED, potential wl & measurements
maybe abuse mention but w TW
bro that was so sus i just cleaned my nose bc there was a huge ass blockage blood chunk so i literally just unplugged it but omg the mess the blood the NOISE WAS EVEN worse but my nose is once again clear so 🤫
January 12, 2026 at 5:17 AM
bro that was so sus i just cleaned my nose bc there was a huge ass blockage blood chunk so i literally just unplugged it but omg the mess the blood the NOISE WAS EVEN worse but my nose is once again clear so 🤫
i bet now that i’ve ended up in an episode i regret taking all the tramadol when now i actually need it broooo
January 12, 2026 at 4:36 AM
i bet now that i’ve ended up in an episode i regret taking all the tramadol when now i actually need it broooo
crazy who can make me the happiest can make me the saddest
January 12, 2026 at 2:51 AM
crazy who can make me the happiest can make me the saddest
i know i’m spiralling and i know this is an episode but its hard bc there’s a sliver of truth to it. if my boyfriend could be with a woman for 12 years, marry her, have a child with her, fall out of love and divorced, what chance do i have? a mentally ill drug addict retard whos only good for sex 🥲
January 12, 2026 at 2:10 AM
i know i’m spiralling and i know this is an episode but its hard bc there’s a sliver of truth to it. if my boyfriend could be with a woman for 12 years, marry her, have a child with her, fall out of love and divorced, what chance do i have? a mentally ill drug addict retard whos only good for sex 🥲
I CANT CATCH A BREAK MAN I GOOGLED WHY DOES SAYING NO MAKE ME REACT LIKE THIS AND IT WAS LIKE “FEARING REJECTION OR ABANDONMENT” bro i have bpd i live in a constant fear of abandonment.
if i can’t perform sexually on command like some blow up sex doll i feel useless and worthless and start comparing myself to all of my ex’s former partners and literally spiralling to the point i absolutely hate myself
January 12, 2026 at 2:01 AM
I CANT CATCH A BREAK MAN I GOOGLED WHY DOES SAYING NO MAKE ME REACT LIKE THIS AND IT WAS LIKE “FEARING REJECTION OR ABANDONMENT” bro i have bpd i live in a constant fear of abandonment.
if i can’t perform sexually on command like some blow up sex doll i feel useless and worthless and start comparing myself to all of my ex’s former partners and literally spiralling to the point i absolutely hate myself
January 12, 2026 at 1:44 AM
if i can’t perform sexually on command like some blow up sex doll i feel useless and worthless and start comparing myself to all of my ex’s former partners and literally spiralling to the point i absolutely hate myself
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if i ever say something genuinely awful, i *want* my friends to tell me to shut the fuck up
January 11, 2026 at 3:59 AM
if i ever say something genuinely awful, i *want* my friends to tell me to shut the fuck up
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ngl if your friend says something terrible and your first response is to try and bail them out, you're a bad friend
January 11, 2026 at 3:59 AM
ngl if your friend says something terrible and your first response is to try and bail them out, you're a bad friend
i picked up 60 tramadol on thursday and i already have non left… they were supposed to last me 2 weeks 😐 why am i like this
January 10, 2026 at 2:49 AM
i picked up 60 tramadol on thursday and i already have non left… they were supposed to last me 2 weeks 😐 why am i like this
someone posted abt the time their afters lasted 14 days n i was like ours lasted like 10 days once and people were confused, judgemental and impressed all at once. first it worked out bc i got ready for the rave at my best friends house so my meds/birth control were there & change of comfy clothes
January 10, 2026 at 2:08 AM
someone posted abt the time their afters lasted 14 days n i was like ours lasted like 10 days once and people were confused, judgemental and impressed all at once. first it worked out bc i got ready for the rave at my best friends house so my meds/birth control were there & change of comfy clothes
like i am so shook by my dad asking me if i’m taking or getting drugs, that i have some ❄️ in my drawer and i don’t even want it? preparing it and consuming it feels like a chore.
January 10, 2026 at 1:01 AM
like i am so shook by my dad asking me if i’m taking or getting drugs, that i have some ❄️ in my drawer and i don’t even want it? preparing it and consuming it feels like a chore.
now that my dad has said something about me maybe using again, i’m just not gonna use at all. i will pay my debt when i have money but i won’t pick up even then. only time will be as a treat if my partner decides on it.
January 10, 2026 at 12:49 AM
now that my dad has said something about me maybe using again, i’m just not gonna use at all. i will pay my debt when i have money but i won’t pick up even then. only time will be as a treat if my partner decides on it.
now that my dad has said something about me maybe using again, i’m just not gonna use at all. i will pay my debt when i have money but i won’t pick up even then. only time will be as a treat if my partner decides on it.
January 10, 2026 at 12:41 AM
now that my dad has said something about me maybe using again, i’m just not gonna use at all. i will pay my debt when i have money but i won’t pick up even then. only time will be as a treat if my partner decides on it.
i am a terrible person. i said i was nipping to see my friend for a moment. my dad asked me “ur not getting any shit off [x] are you?” i said no shes never even been into that. when i got back i asked if i could come in there room a sec & i asked my dad “where did that come from?”
January 9, 2026 at 9:22 PM
i am a terrible person. i said i was nipping to see my friend for a moment. my dad asked me “ur not getting any shit off [x] are you?” i said no shes never even been into that. when i got back i asked if i could come in there room a sec & i asked my dad “where did that come from?”
i think that was my finest work yet. i wrote absolute filth for him to wake up too lmao
January 8, 2026 at 2:57 AM
i think that was my finest work yet. i wrote absolute filth for him to wake up too lmao
my bf is trying to sleep and i’m just sending him sexts 🤭
January 8, 2026 at 1:22 AM
my bf is trying to sleep and i’m just sending him sexts 🤭
i gave my partner a detailed play through of what happened and what was said when i met up with the dealer and instead of him being happy happily with me & giving me praise, he’s giving me the 3rd degree. i can’t win. its not like i can avoid him, i’m in debt
January 8, 2026 at 12:16 AM
i gave my partner a detailed play through of what happened and what was said when i met up with the dealer and instead of him being happy happily with me & giving me praise, he’s giving me the 3rd degree. i can’t win. its not like i can avoid him, i’m in debt
go away mr ❄️ dealer im strung out and the minute i step out into that cold and go and do sobering tasks it will just kill it 💔
January 7, 2026 at 7:08 PM
go away mr ❄️ dealer im strung out and the minute i step out into that cold and go and do sobering tasks it will just kill it 💔
i love when my bf is protective of me its so so attractive to me like he’s papi for a reason
January 7, 2026 at 6:47 PM
i love when my bf is protective of me its so so attractive to me like he’s papi for a reason
im strung out this is my favourite state of being
January 7, 2026 at 5:57 PM
im strung out this is my favourite state of being
sigh why did the ❄️ dealer have to respond AFTER i took opioids and they were kicking in…
January 7, 2026 at 5:28 PM
sigh why did the ❄️ dealer have to respond AFTER i took opioids and they were kicking in…
i survived last night and my boyfriend and i had a difficult but ultimately productive talk and i’m feeling more stable now, and i went to the chemist today & picked up my two favourite prescriptions
January 7, 2026 at 1:14 PM
i survived last night and my boyfriend and i had a difficult but ultimately productive talk and i’m feeling more stable now, and i went to the chemist today & picked up my two favourite prescriptions
im losing my shit. ran out ❄️ he said he’d reload by 5 but i can’t score. my dads got no blades i can take. i have no valium. my boyfriend is a head fuck and is HURTING me and all i have is a huge stash of sleeping pills!!!!
January 6, 2026 at 8:21 PM
im losing my shit. ran out ❄️ he said he’d reload by 5 but i can’t score. my dads got no blades i can take. i have no valium. my boyfriend is a head fuck and is HURTING me and all i have is a huge stash of sleeping pills!!!!
my boyfriend has triggered me so fucking much standing 🧍🏻
January 6, 2026 at 5:50 PM
my boyfriend has triggered me so fucking much standing 🧍🏻
although i have come so far in terms of anger management, controlling my temper, not becoming violent etc. i was a bit wild when i was a younger, emerging bpd teen w AuDHD. i use my therapy tools & self regulation & try to remove myself. i only lost control twice last year.
January 6, 2026 at 4:45 PM
although i have come so far in terms of anger management, controlling my temper, not becoming violent etc. i was a bit wild when i was a younger, emerging bpd teen w AuDHD. i use my therapy tools & self regulation & try to remove myself. i only lost control twice last year.