@its-the-meek.bsky.social
Alive, cared for, and doing my best 💙
January 20, 2026 at 2:03 PM
Alive, cared for, and doing my best 💙
Real joy has drained away. I'm getting by with small ones/comforts wherever I can find them. Kindness and open-mindedness is a boon wherever I'm lucky enough to receive. Thankful for those who do. I can barely give lately and was once again told/shown how wrong my existence is today.
On to another.
On to another.
October 12, 2025 at 3:38 PM
Real joy has drained away. I'm getting by with small ones/comforts wherever I can find them. Kindness and open-mindedness is a boon wherever I'm lucky enough to receive. Thankful for those who do. I can barely give lately and was once again told/shown how wrong my existence is today.
On to another.
On to another.
🧵 I am, like... deliriously positive today. Low-key vibing despite the usual (and pretty persistent) ouches and groggy.
It's because my partner got me DA: The Veilguard and I decided to play Inquisition again before it. New playthrough.
I LOVE that game. Thought I'd be all bleh with it -
It's because my partner got me DA: The Veilguard and I decided to play Inquisition again before it. New playthrough.
I LOVE that game. Thought I'd be all bleh with it -
September 24, 2025 at 1:25 AM
🧵 I am, like... deliriously positive today. Low-key vibing despite the usual (and pretty persistent) ouches and groggy.
It's because my partner got me DA: The Veilguard and I decided to play Inquisition again before it. New playthrough.
I LOVE that game. Thought I'd be all bleh with it -
It's because my partner got me DA: The Veilguard and I decided to play Inquisition again before it. New playthrough.
I LOVE that game. Thought I'd be all bleh with it -
:x I... may need to watch this... art v good.
September 5, 2025 at 10:59 AM
:x I... may need to watch this... art v good.
I got some pens yesterday that I used to use 10 years ago to do most of my pen doodles. They just glide so nicely!
Sticky Note doodling has commenced once again!!
Sticky Note doodling has commenced once again!!
July 31, 2025 at 12:51 PM
I got some pens yesterday that I used to use 10 years ago to do most of my pen doodles. They just glide so nicely!
Sticky Note doodling has commenced once again!!
Sticky Note doodling has commenced once again!!
Even through the worst of times, I'd never given up hope. It is a surprise, but no matter how tightly I had to wrap it to pretend it wasn't there... I'm glad it still was.
I don't know what this country will come to despite our best efforts. Yet I'm so grateful for that hope and all it can bring.
I don't know what this country will come to despite our best efforts. Yet I'm so grateful for that hope and all it can bring.
April 3, 2025 at 1:05 PM
Even through the worst of times, I'd never given up hope. It is a surprise, but no matter how tightly I had to wrap it to pretend it wasn't there... I'm glad it still was.
I don't know what this country will come to despite our best efforts. Yet I'm so grateful for that hope and all it can bring.
I don't know what this country will come to despite our best efforts. Yet I'm so grateful for that hope and all it can bring.
The thing about working at my new job is... for a feminine presenting figure... I am the tallest. 😅
It's kinda ridiculous as I am the second shortest in my family, and I am used to being/feeling small.
The masc presenting people are mostly taller than I, but still. Average is a new tall? 😅
It's kinda ridiculous as I am the second shortest in my family, and I am used to being/feeling small.
The masc presenting people are mostly taller than I, but still. Average is a new tall? 😅
March 22, 2025 at 12:20 AM
The thing about working at my new job is... for a feminine presenting figure... I am the tallest. 😅
It's kinda ridiculous as I am the second shortest in my family, and I am used to being/feeling small.
The masc presenting people are mostly taller than I, but still. Average is a new tall? 😅
It's kinda ridiculous as I am the second shortest in my family, and I am used to being/feeling small.
The masc presenting people are mostly taller than I, but still. Average is a new tall? 😅
Inexplicable urges are strange..
Today's brought me to a very specific location for these two items, specifically.. and a few more for good measure.
I got to use a gift card I've had for a while, finally, but it was just strange..
Until I bit into one of these combos and my GODS was it everything
Today's brought me to a very specific location for these two items, specifically.. and a few more for good measure.
I got to use a gift card I've had for a while, finally, but it was just strange..
Until I bit into one of these combos and my GODS was it everything
March 15, 2025 at 8:51 PM
Inexplicable urges are strange..
Today's brought me to a very specific location for these two items, specifically.. and a few more for good measure.
I got to use a gift card I've had for a while, finally, but it was just strange..
Until I bit into one of these combos and my GODS was it everything
Today's brought me to a very specific location for these two items, specifically.. and a few more for good measure.
I got to use a gift card I've had for a while, finally, but it was just strange..
Until I bit into one of these combos and my GODS was it everything
I thought it'd feel stranger being up at the hospital and it not being a time I'm the one in need of care... but then I've always found Hospitals comfortable and settle into the caretaker role well.
(Nothing too major. Not emergency visit. Medical system just sucks and sometimes peeps need support)
(Nothing too major. Not emergency visit. Medical system just sucks and sometimes peeps need support)
March 5, 2025 at 11:26 PM
I thought it'd feel stranger being up at the hospital and it not being a time I'm the one in need of care... but then I've always found Hospitals comfortable and settle into the caretaker role well.
(Nothing too major. Not emergency visit. Medical system just sucks and sometimes peeps need support)
(Nothing too major. Not emergency visit. Medical system just sucks and sometimes peeps need support)
I remember now why I disliked day shift so much (love that it goes quick, mind you, but):
I'm alone 90% of the time.
All my peeps are sleep 😭
😮💨
I'm alone 90% of the time.
All my peeps are sleep 😭
😮💨
March 2, 2025 at 2:25 AM
I remember now why I disliked day shift so much (love that it goes quick, mind you, but):
I'm alone 90% of the time.
All my peeps are sleep 😭
😮💨
I'm alone 90% of the time.
All my peeps are sleep 😭
😮💨
I knew it was bad, but I had nearly convinced myself it'd be cheaper/more feasible to crowdfund to buy an RV to have a portable home than it would be to have 3 people leave the country.
It's cheaper/would be more feasible to crowdfund to leave the country. You're joking me.
It's cheaper/would be more feasible to crowdfund to leave the country. You're joking me.
a girl in a white dress is sitting in a dark bathroom
ALT: a girl in a white dress is sitting in a dark bathroom
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March 1, 2025 at 1:59 AM
I knew it was bad, but I had nearly convinced myself it'd be cheaper/more feasible to crowdfund to buy an RV to have a portable home than it would be to have 3 people leave the country.
It's cheaper/would be more feasible to crowdfund to leave the country. You're joking me.
It's cheaper/would be more feasible to crowdfund to leave the country. You're joking me.
I promised myself that if/when I was able to successfully be hired for a job again I'd go out and buy myself one of those home kits for teeth (because being able to save up $600 for an in-office visit just isn't feasible rn).
I didn't go out, but I ordered one! And a treat AND an anxiety soother 😅💙
I didn't go out, but I ordered one! And a treat AND an anxiety soother 😅💙
February 21, 2025 at 6:05 PM
I promised myself that if/when I was able to successfully be hired for a job again I'd go out and buy myself one of those home kits for teeth (because being able to save up $600 for an in-office visit just isn't feasible rn).
I didn't go out, but I ordered one! And a treat AND an anxiety soother 😅💙
I didn't go out, but I ordered one! And a treat AND an anxiety soother 😅💙
Wooo nothing like a lack-of-sleep plus stress-induced panic attack while trying to get that much-needed sleep! 😅
It comes with good news of job interview soon, but boy... is involuntary change hard.
Here's to hoping for a great fit with manageable hours!! 💙
*breathe, breathe...*
It comes with good news of job interview soon, but boy... is involuntary change hard.
Here's to hoping for a great fit with manageable hours!! 💙
*breathe, breathe...*
February 17, 2025 at 8:23 PM
Wooo nothing like a lack-of-sleep plus stress-induced panic attack while trying to get that much-needed sleep! 😅
It comes with good news of job interview soon, but boy... is involuntary change hard.
Here's to hoping for a great fit with manageable hours!! 💙
*breathe, breathe...*
It comes with good news of job interview soon, but boy... is involuntary change hard.
Here's to hoping for a great fit with manageable hours!! 💙
*breathe, breathe...*
That moment when you realize you're more ill than you thought 😅
I woke up earlier, and names didn't make sense.
Legit thought "why do we call people by their names? Why not their roles? Theres too many names to remember..."
I KNOW why, but my brain was fried 😅
I woke up earlier, and names didn't make sense.
Legit thought "why do we call people by their names? Why not their roles? Theres too many names to remember..."
I KNOW why, but my brain was fried 😅
January 26, 2025 at 7:32 AM
That moment when you realize you're more ill than you thought 😅
I woke up earlier, and names didn't make sense.
Legit thought "why do we call people by their names? Why not their roles? Theres too many names to remember..."
I KNOW why, but my brain was fried 😅
I woke up earlier, and names didn't make sense.
Legit thought "why do we call people by their names? Why not their roles? Theres too many names to remember..."
I KNOW why, but my brain was fried 😅
Reposted
As a lot of people are migrating here (hi!) please remember our first rule, we do not engage with trolls, we don't dunk, we don't share to troll back, we block to oblivion. This place has the most powerful block, use it.
They'll leave by themself if nobody answer.
They'll leave by themself if nobody answer.
January 25, 2025 at 9:49 AM
As a lot of people are migrating here (hi!) please remember our first rule, we do not engage with trolls, we don't dunk, we don't share to troll back, we block to oblivion. This place has the most powerful block, use it.
They'll leave by themself if nobody answer.
They'll leave by themself if nobody answer.
So.
Yay doctor's visit.
We still need to rule in/out one last thing, but I, um, uh....
Seizures are starting to look more and more plausible.
Two people in my immediate family were diagnosed with seizures previously, so it's not outside the realm of reality. Just... unexpected for me.
Yay doctor's visit.
We still need to rule in/out one last thing, but I, um, uh....
Seizures are starting to look more and more plausible.
Two people in my immediate family were diagnosed with seizures previously, so it's not outside the realm of reality. Just... unexpected for me.
January 20, 2025 at 5:57 PM
So.
Yay doctor's visit.
We still need to rule in/out one last thing, but I, um, uh....
Seizures are starting to look more and more plausible.
Two people in my immediate family were diagnosed with seizures previously, so it's not outside the realm of reality. Just... unexpected for me.
Yay doctor's visit.
We still need to rule in/out one last thing, but I, um, uh....
Seizures are starting to look more and more plausible.
Two people in my immediate family were diagnosed with seizures previously, so it's not outside the realm of reality. Just... unexpected for me.
Guess what I did today...
*Ripped an ice maker outta a fridge because the access bolt for the cord is corroded in place, and I wasn't risking anyone else getting burned by the thing like I was by leaving it alone.
(*ripping was done with care. Not-our-fridge was not damaged in removal)
*Ripped an ice maker outta a fridge because the access bolt for the cord is corroded in place, and I wasn't risking anyone else getting burned by the thing like I was by leaving it alone.
(*ripping was done with care. Not-our-fridge was not damaged in removal)
January 20, 2025 at 3:15 AM
Guess what I did today...
*Ripped an ice maker outta a fridge because the access bolt for the cord is corroded in place, and I wasn't risking anyone else getting burned by the thing like I was by leaving it alone.
(*ripping was done with care. Not-our-fridge was not damaged in removal)
*Ripped an ice maker outta a fridge because the access bolt for the cord is corroded in place, and I wasn't risking anyone else getting burned by the thing like I was by leaving it alone.
(*ripping was done with care. Not-our-fridge was not damaged in removal)
Well.. with my birthday coming up this week I keep getting hit with "my happiness has never mattered, so why would this time be any different?"
Last year's was devastating. This year I don even have a job to buy anything to take the edge off & I'm being faced with giving up everything to get work.
Last year's was devastating. This year I don even have a job to buy anything to take the edge off & I'm being faced with giving up everything to get work.
January 19, 2025 at 10:49 AM
Well.. with my birthday coming up this week I keep getting hit with "my happiness has never mattered, so why would this time be any different?"
Last year's was devastating. This year I don even have a job to buy anything to take the edge off & I'm being faced with giving up everything to get work.
Last year's was devastating. This year I don even have a job to buy anything to take the edge off & I'm being faced with giving up everything to get work.
I just unlocked another childhood memory totally on accident ^^'
While I don't recall my age.. I was in the bathroom at my grandparents' house and... dilly-dallying because I didn't want to leave it. The smell of my soap is what brought this memory back because it's the same scent/type they had.
While I don't recall my age.. I was in the bathroom at my grandparents' house and... dilly-dallying because I didn't want to leave it. The smell of my soap is what brought this memory back because it's the same scent/type they had.
January 17, 2025 at 12:03 PM
I just unlocked another childhood memory totally on accident ^^'
While I don't recall my age.. I was in the bathroom at my grandparents' house and... dilly-dallying because I didn't want to leave it. The smell of my soap is what brought this memory back because it's the same scent/type they had.
While I don't recall my age.. I was in the bathroom at my grandparents' house and... dilly-dallying because I didn't want to leave it. The smell of my soap is what brought this memory back because it's the same scent/type they had.
I have an interview Monday!!
Hooray!! 🥰
I hope I get the job.
Regardless- HOORAY!! An interview!! 🥰
Hooray!! 🥰
I hope I get the job.
Regardless- HOORAY!! An interview!! 🥰
January 10, 2025 at 3:50 PM
I have an interview Monday!!
Hooray!! 🥰
I hope I get the job.
Regardless- HOORAY!! An interview!! 🥰
Hooray!! 🥰
I hope I get the job.
Regardless- HOORAY!! An interview!! 🥰
Job I applied for: Call us to set up an interview!
*calls*
Job I applied for: Oh, we already hired someone for that role!
.... it hasn't even been 24 hours!!
Damn...
They are being kind enough to see if they have any other openings and will hopefully get back to me if they do... *sigh*
*calls*
Job I applied for: Oh, we already hired someone for that role!
.... it hasn't even been 24 hours!!
Damn...
They are being kind enough to see if they have any other openings and will hopefully get back to me if they do... *sigh*
January 9, 2025 at 6:45 PM
Job I applied for: Call us to set up an interview!
*calls*
Job I applied for: Oh, we already hired someone for that role!
.... it hasn't even been 24 hours!!
Damn...
They are being kind enough to see if they have any other openings and will hopefully get back to me if they do... *sigh*
*calls*
Job I applied for: Oh, we already hired someone for that role!
.... it hasn't even been 24 hours!!
Damn...
They are being kind enough to see if they have any other openings and will hopefully get back to me if they do... *sigh*
Today is one of those days where I'm sad I have the mind I do.
Want to/Should draw bc need to TRY and advertise for commissions bc stuffs gonna get real bad really fast soon with me out of a job...
Thinks of what to draw/how and the hope driving me just disappears.
Doomscrolls for 5 hours.
Eyep.
Want to/Should draw bc need to TRY and advertise for commissions bc stuffs gonna get real bad really fast soon with me out of a job...
Thinks of what to draw/how and the hope driving me just disappears.
Doomscrolls for 5 hours.
Eyep.
January 7, 2025 at 3:02 PM
Today is one of those days where I'm sad I have the mind I do.
Want to/Should draw bc need to TRY and advertise for commissions bc stuffs gonna get real bad really fast soon with me out of a job...
Thinks of what to draw/how and the hope driving me just disappears.
Doomscrolls for 5 hours.
Eyep.
Want to/Should draw bc need to TRY and advertise for commissions bc stuffs gonna get real bad really fast soon with me out of a job...
Thinks of what to draw/how and the hope driving me just disappears.
Doomscrolls for 5 hours.
Eyep.
You ever go to the big shopping site to nab a necessity only for it to actually have your interests on home page for once & you see something that makes you think
"If someone proposed with that, I'd say yes in a heartbeat!"
Only to then mentally smack yourself because there's more to it than that-
"If someone proposed with that, I'd say yes in a heartbeat!"
Only to then mentally smack yourself because there's more to it than that-
January 4, 2025 at 8:45 AM
You ever go to the big shopping site to nab a necessity only for it to actually have your interests on home page for once & you see something that makes you think
"If someone proposed with that, I'd say yes in a heartbeat!"
Only to then mentally smack yourself because there's more to it than that-
"If someone proposed with that, I'd say yes in a heartbeat!"
Only to then mentally smack yourself because there's more to it than that-
Having been given an early birthday gift of some WoW time... I'm not even using it at the moment, but having it..
I don't know why, but it is incredibly comforting and motivating.
Just knowing it's there I feel more able to navigate life and chores and more.
Strange but positive.
I don't know why, but it is incredibly comforting and motivating.
Just knowing it's there I feel more able to navigate life and chores and more.
Strange but positive.
January 2, 2025 at 12:56 PM
Having been given an early birthday gift of some WoW time... I'm not even using it at the moment, but having it..
I don't know why, but it is incredibly comforting and motivating.
Just knowing it's there I feel more able to navigate life and chores and more.
Strange but positive.
I don't know why, but it is incredibly comforting and motivating.
Just knowing it's there I feel more able to navigate life and chores and more.
Strange but positive.
I'm more of a mess than I thought I was 😅
Got out of bed to get dressed & do some dishes & just... end up breaking down bc Grandma (being kind) sends info on job-finding help.
My family & friends are kind 💙
I'm just a mess knowing I'll never be as good as I want to be, and life is hard.
Got out of bed to get dressed & do some dishes & just... end up breaking down bc Grandma (being kind) sends info on job-finding help.
My family & friends are kind 💙
I'm just a mess knowing I'll never be as good as I want to be, and life is hard.
December 28, 2024 at 5:32 AM
I'm more of a mess than I thought I was 😅
Got out of bed to get dressed & do some dishes & just... end up breaking down bc Grandma (being kind) sends info on job-finding help.
My family & friends are kind 💙
I'm just a mess knowing I'll never be as good as I want to be, and life is hard.
Got out of bed to get dressed & do some dishes & just... end up breaking down bc Grandma (being kind) sends info on job-finding help.
My family & friends are kind 💙
I'm just a mess knowing I'll never be as good as I want to be, and life is hard.