As much as I'd obv like to win more and keep doing it and keep it growing etc as well as the fact that the trophy I won is basically just a little basic low level regional thing I also kind of feel like the fact that I did win it in under 2 years against seasoned vets means I've proved my point

But if I'm supporting everything all the time then who's supporting me?

And before anyone is like "wtf, how are you the saviour"

The people in charge have been in charge for 40 years and have done nothing. In 2 years I've gotten 16 new members. That's 16 more than in the 40 previous years.

If I make no effort it dies

On the one hand if I'm in the right mood then being on the green makes me chill but focused at the same time. Like it's where I'm meant to be

But I cba with all the bs and the politics and unfortunately the bs and the politics are unavoidable because my club will be dead in 5 years without me

At the moment I aint died for about 10 runs in a row & with each run completed I level up the characers even more making them even more OP on levels that don't get harder

Not having a proper pop at it. I appreciate its ideas but it's lost the compelling nature of the challenge with the level ups

Basically, if you want to be in touch with me, reach out I guess. Cos I'm not likely to, as much as I might like to, cos part of me doesn't even know who would like to be reached out to

But I am open

Using that term "misinterpreted" there just reminded me of a time as a teen when friends and I were all tasked with describing eachother with 1 word and someone literally said "misunderstood" as the word for me

It was a compliment

But was also before an autism diagnosis & is funny to look back at

Except the type I'm talking about specifically is outdoor bowls, like this, in which I appear - www.youtube.com/watch?v=bU4M...

I do play indoor as well though, but only through the winter.

I'm better at outdoor and also I think outdoor is better

It's this www.youtube.com/watch?v=e4oh... 😍

I know right? I almost just said "Fuck it, you win" cos I was pissed off at blowing my 11-6 lead and crumbling, but it turns out that being pissed off works for me cos I got 7 shots in 2 ends

Legit feel bad for the loser while being so close to winning. But that's just cos I'm nice.

Epic final

Thank you. It really means alot to me to win but I actually like the guy I beat in the final & therefore I also feel a little bit bad? Idk. Hard to explain.

But in a fun bowls fact, it's literally the only trophy at the club that my dad never did win. Between us our name is now on everything 🙏💜

Tonights song I'm letting get stuck in my head beforehand to sing internally and get into a rhythm to whenever I lose focus www.youtube.com/watch?v=d9jh...

It just started raining and I play better when it's dry. 4 hours till the match though, it might dry up again

Getting the excuses out of the way early on lol