if i were to be completely honest with you, i don't want to be here anymore. but the love i have for my friends and the chance of meeting more who are understanding and kind give me glimmers of hope that things can be okay, and possibly improve even

my heart was made to love unconditionally no matter how much i despise and try to change that fact. its been tainted again and again. im ill equipped to be unconditional anyway, ill never feel safe enough to be that vulnerable again but i still try to share that love with those that i trust

i wanted to create art that reflects my heart, to carve out a tiny mark in this world to prove that i was alive instead of suffering in silence until the very end, but i don't think i'll ever get that chance when all of my energy is spent on survival

i just hope that i can experience life somewhat before it gets to that point

aaaa yes please >w<

proud of you

i have more dog qualities than either of those tbh

yes i have multiple uploads

the damage is already done, no matter if my teeth are pristine now. being a caretaker of 7 years for the father that i hated really did a number on me, i'll be suffering the consequences of neglecting my body for years to come.