uhh this post doesnt really have a point i guess?? its a long rant about nothing really, just me being confused, nervous, and insecure about,,,,, something,,? -end(9/9)

i really do wanna try using tumblr again. i've been trying to convince myself to for MONTHS!! but i stopped using it because i got depressed about no one engaging with my art on The Art Place™ and now suddenly felt stress i hadn't realized i was dealing with when i was there before. -tbc8

i feel like somekitty is gonna quiz me and then call me stupid and unreliable, that this is why no one includes me in the big boy conversations and that this is why i shouldn't form my own opinions. im not educated enough to have any. this feeling fucking sucks. -tbc7

again, i have no idea what exactly this relates to. some form of trauma or neurodivergent thing, maybe i do have a superiority complex, but i like being in the know!! even if i never talk about anything i know, i like being a fly on the wall!! i feel genuinely upset when i DONT know something. -tbc6

its so frustrating. i end up going down rabbit holes and doom-jumping (not doom-scrolling, im jumping from post to post) and spending so long just on a weird train of trying to grasp concepts that my feeble mind can't comprehend and i feel fucking stupid. i tried so hard. why dont i get it? -tbc5

even when i do find the info i was looking for, i have to reread the post 6 times to fully understand what the post is saying. now i know the word, but it took me like 15 minutes to grasp the concept / meaning of the word. so now i feel stupid. even worse when i STILL don't understand it. -tbc4

- can be deleted!! so i may not be able to find what that word means. so i see other people ask in the comments what that word/thing is and they reply "thanks for telling me!" but i cant find the reply that told them, so i still dont know what it is!! now im without info!! -tbc3

so because i dont wanna look stupid, i HAVE to know the things but because half the things were coined on tumblr, its the only place to find the word and definition. but tumblr is inconsistent, its not like wikipedia where theres a group monitoring things and archiving stuff, the original post -tbc2

Nah, good work is good work. And even if it's not "good work" if you enjoy it then enjoy it!! Be joyful, have whimsy, cringe culture is dead 💙

mood (courtesy of @lestatanic.bsky.social)

I remember, you also made them serrated at some point!! They looked like chainsaws 👁️👁️