All i have to do is draw a new banner then I'm done with my new layout.

I may come back here occasionally but i probably wont be as active until private accounts become a thing. Honestly I may just scream about Sonic and Battlefield when that happens lol.

Plus im seeing so much art again!!! And little/minimal AI slop!! It feels like a breath of fresh air. Its sunday evening and im chillin'. Happy, even. Life is beautiful! (i say while off the clock /lh /hj)

I realize now that by engaging with triggering content and topics regularly was really terrible for my mental health (shocking, i know!) And 14 was full of it with its racism! But now im free. I interact with the folks i like, 14 related or no, and im thriving.

i still keep in contact with friends and acquaintances and even follow some artists bc ive met some great people through this game but the landscape definitely changed somewhere down the line.

all this to say that it's an uphill battle, but im getting there.

but it's all good now. i want to be creative again and i think social media is a great way to share that creativity, but i keep finding myself hiding away because of that damn community and i need to snap out of it. i still love 14 the game but i can't be around the general sm community anymore.

and finding ways to regulate myself emotionally outside of sm during intense periods has definitely helped. but man. its hard to get back into it when milk people mistake your trauma-induced meltdowns as violence instead of pent-up frustration and they use that to attack you.

I have a lot of regrets bc of poor mental health + trauma and the 14 community did NOT help, but i think the more i interact and the more i step away from that community the easier it will get.

as a kid i really did use social media as an escape i realize bc of emotional neglect-

Ah well. Guess Im starting my moon grind early 💪🏾😔

without the foreground

This is the rabbit sweetroll is based on btw