I have a line I like to say, usually along the lines of "I used to be fun, I swear". It was nice to be able to prove it. Not that it needed proving to all the strangers who didn't know me, but for myself. It was nice that when asked to goof around, I said yes. I'd do it again. That's all.

But I was invited. The only people I knew were the hosts and my partner. I looked nice, and I made a toast for like six strangers and my joke was funny. People laughed. I was asked for my input on the redesign of the couples' basement living space and it was valued. No one asked about my masking.

For the next few days I'll be obsessing/worrying that I'll have picked up covid or something else while there, and wondering if it was worth going at all. I had an unrelated bad attitude all day and if I'm honest, I tried to be cheerful but still probably wasn't my best while I was there.

I don't even know if there was a Will there. The "!" looked like a "?", to my dismay and the delight of the folks whose idea it was anyway. My partner tipsily bragged that I was so good at it because I'm an artist. We didn't take any pictures. It might be something I one day forget that I did.

I was enlisted to play a little "prank" and we got some icing in a plastic bag so I could pipe "HAPPY Birthday WILL!" on an un-decorated cookie cake. I made a heart and a four point star and an attempt at confetti when there's only one icing color. We didn't take a picture. I don't know a Will.

everytime i open the app, i get this first. I've needed it every time as I work through grieving six people, and now covid positive. thanks