If I'm a failure I might as well be a dry failure instead of a sweaty one. Also, this one dude keeps trying to pester me about what's wrong and I keep telling him it doesn't matter but he's been trying to get me to talk for like 5 hours now. Like bro, it makes me miserable, stop.

The way my brain is lashing out. And I'm sure part of it is wounded pride, but mostly I just feel like I must be a failure. 6 months and nothing. And they didn't even follow up to tell me till I managed to stop an HR lady and ask for myself. So, why was I trying so hard? Why should I try anymore?

But that doesn't really change anything. It's just me throwing a hissy fit. And I'm so mad about that too, because I KNOW I'm not reacting at an equivalent level to what happened. I know! But my brain is screaming and it's all I can do to keep to myself about it because I know others don't deserve

I just feel so mad. And I know I resent some of my coworkers who I feel "contributed." Even though I'm like 95% sure they didn't have any input in the decision. I'm just so angry. Dude I work with and half assed chaperone? Hired in. Me? Nah. And part of me is angry and pointing fingers about it.

Getting written up for something avoidable. Like, I stay sweeping, squeegee-ing, using the air blower to get under the machines. I stay doing! And apparently, I'm "not attacking the cleanliness of my area aggressively enough." Ma'am I got a fucked up leg and I still get my shit done.

To continue the point, the sup literally has me chaperoning one person who gets super distracted at work. I'm not an asshole about it but if I see him miss something I'll be like "[dude]" and point at what he missed. Because that's not really my job or responsibility, but I also don't want him

But still. It's frustrating feeling like I've worked since months just to be told I'm insufficient.

And like, sure, it's at their discretion, etc etc. but cleaning was literally the only complaint my supervisor had. And I'd like to point out I did clean my areas, even at the end of the night. I was also the only one from my side who'd go over to the other side and look for stuff to help with.

I'm not sorry, I'm actually kind of proud that this is the result of my actions 🥰

It's been revealed to you. My condolences 🫠

I mean your community contributed to Blork and Clunge shenanigans so....yeah, I'd say they're pretty top tier. Not that I'm biased or anything :^)

Me out here casually filling the moon's void

Is.....is this because I just reacted to your lewd?

😂😂 look, I work 6 days a week again, my fucksluttery hours are limited okay!