Then Judas is a traitor, you killed our savior. Thanks Jesus for dying for my sins, but Judas, you're an asshole. There always has to be a scapegoat in their stories. It always has to be someone else's fault.

Jesus was crucified, for us, he is praised. The crowd, not followers, sent him to the cross. They are then outlined as the world. In church terms that would be anyone who is a nonbeliever. It seems as they are always talked down upon. They are the others, the outside world, the bad guys.

Being a part of some other social media platform groups and reading other people's stories, though for me it feels like a low level of comparison, I think it's what some would call church trauma. It difficult to even think about going back into a church and trusting people.

Recently I have been struggling with loneliness. I haven't tried to find another church and not sure if I want to. There is an inclusive church that a buddy of mine goes to and I've been there. But it's such a small group of people it's hard to hang back and just observe people.

Every Sunday I dreaded going there because I didn't feel like it was a place for me anymore. There was a brief time of relief for not having to go there every Sunday then every other week. It's kind of sad how even though I was lingering on the edge of that circle, it was my community.

I had been wanting to leave for a while but I have this fear of disappointing people. After a few days he messaged me about my decision. I told him I was burnt out. The past couple years I just kind of showed up late and wouldn't interact with anyone. I don't even think anyone realizes I've left.

This conversation of two very nonconfrontational people about whether or not it was something I was going to continue doing. He gave me some time to think about it. I wanted right then and there to say that I was done. The pastor in a few sermons kind of was outspoken against trans people.

Trying to figure out this platform and going through who I follow on the other place I found a comedian from that list
bsky.app/profile/kurt...