kevin and riko in there and it’s so OUYGGGGGHHHHHH

sorry for all these kevin rants i’m just really normal abt him and have nowhere else to get my thoughts out #sorry

convince him not to take andrew by force WHICH IS LIEK AGGGGGHHHHHHHHH
ok inneed to be normla now oh myngofdddddd
these posts always get so off track bc i start w one like small thought or observation or smth and then i bring in like 50 other takes and ideas and then it gets so long lmao

about riko and kevin flying out to see andrew and recruit him BUT kevin wouldn’t call him useless before then bc he WANTED andrew to be with them, only after when andrew said no would kevin ever say that so to me it read as after the rejection riko “offered” andrew to kevin somehow and kevin had to

them after his rejection to appease kevin’s desire/begging for him but only didn’t bc kevin said not to bht like the use of the word offer in the quote is so…. like look
“you said that goalkeeper had potential and than you wrote him off as useless when i offered him to you” LIKE OK this could be

i really hope we get a glimpse of that convo in kevin’s books bc i’m soooo curious what he said, or at least if we don’t get that i NEED to get a pov of andrew’s recruitment or like the aftermath bc riko’s choice of words implied to me that’s like riko was going to try and get andrew to play for

like riko knowing abt kevin possibly having gay thoughts and being disgusted by them BUT ALSO after that andrew walks in and riko says they were just tlaking abt him which could be in reference to the whole recruit conversation or the one they just had where WE DONT KNOW WHAT THEY ABT

knows or thinks kevin is either romantically/sexually attracted to them as well” bc like we KNOW riko is homophobic and dislikes any sort of attraction kevin has (not so much straight attraction but he did still tell kevin to get that straight attraction “out of his system”) SO to me that reads as

starts like talking to him in angry japanese WHICH TO ME reads as like kevin admitting (w the face he made) that “well that’s not true i’m still interested in andrew/his ability as well as neil’s” AND THE FACT THAT RIKO IS DESCRIBED AS MAKIGN A “DISGUSTED” NOISE makes me think like “oh riko either

his way to see and try and recruit andrew BUT ALSO in that convo riko says that kevin will lose interest in neil just as quickly as he did in andrew (which HE DIDNT lose interest in andrew) BUT ALSO after this kevin like makes a face at that like accusation and then riko makes a disgusted noise and

riko & the coach to consider AND FLY OUT to meet andrew only to respect andrew’s rejection and make sure riko & the coach didn’t force him into the ravens is crazy and i wonder what the blowback was on kevin for wanting andrew so bad and then losing him after he was the one who made riko go out of

and riko basically says that he could’ve “offered” andrew to kevin but kevin eventually called andrew useless and like not worth their time bc he’s not going to put in the effort (which he Clearly doesn’t agree w) WHICH by itself is crazy bc like the fact that 1. kevin advocated and probably begged

i didn’t notice it when i originally read it or at least i forgot abt it but it’s so….. like it can be read in this specific way and idk if the author mwant it that way or like what it actualy means but basically like the first part of the convo is riko talking ab when kevin wanted to recruit andrew

nauseous while reading kevin’s duologu bc the first book IS HIS POV OF THE NEST LIKE OH MY GOD 😭😭😭😭😭 like first thing that will make me insane and cry HIS POV, but especially if it’s of the nest and riko and jean…. oouuggggggggghhhhhhh………. i need this one convo in the first book to be expanded on bc

were truly friends, i assume at one point kevin thought so, but idk if riko could ever view their relationship that way, did he even ever have any friends if not for kevin….. like oiuhgggghb thinking abt them makes me sickkkkkkkkkkkkkkk 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 i think i will genuinely sob and maybe even feel

lowkey real except i’m just anxious ☹️
that sucks tho :((( panicking for no reason is the worst bc like u know u don’t have a reaosn but it’s still there and u can’t get rid of it :( i’m sorry

had a whole thought abt the trojans but as i typed it out i began to disagree w myself so nvm but yeah i need kevin and neil in the third book PLSSSS
and if that means we get more andrew (bc neither of those 3 can go anywhere w out the others) then i will be very happy w that as well :333

reading that after all the shit in the first triology and jean’s part ur like “yeah jeremy is going through shit but it’s not that crazy” and then u sit to think abt it and it’s like wait no that’s actually crazy and we barely even know anything bc jeremy is the most Unreliable narrator Ever !!!!

neil cameo in the next book bc we can’t end off jean’s triology w out his “misplaced forever partner” (technicallt it’s jean & jeremy’s trilogy but like half of it is jean’s so neil deserves a cameo)
bro i’m so scared for the last book bc bro we finally will get to learn more abt jeremy and like