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kaikaibitxh.bsky.social
Cloudyz🫧
@kaikaibitxh.bsky.social
20+ | I write sometimes | girl kisser | kghn skts bkdk tgck
I love projecting into atsumu!! Projecting on to my favorite characters is the best thing ever

I copied this from my Twitter so if there is a repeated tweet or it seems as if their is something missing please tell me so I can fix it!!
January 7, 2025 at 3:31 AM
They all hated this. They hatted everything what was happening right now and they had no clue how to fix it.

//end.

I might add more onto this at some point!
January 7, 2025 at 3:30 AM
but neither of them could do anything.

He called Suna who was instantly worried when he heard the boys sobs on the it when side.

Suna quickly came over rafter finding out what had happened. All he could do was comfort Osamu to his best ability when hurt himself too.
January 7, 2025 at 3:29 AM
walking out of the door.

Osamu ran down when he hurt the door shut. But he was too late by time he opened the door he couldn't see Atsumu. He didn't know where he went or where he could go.

He didnt know what to do. Ma was out the house he called her and told her what happened
January 7, 2025 at 3:29 AM
"YOU CAN'T HELP!! YOU CAN'T STOP MY FEELINGS OR WHAT I WANT." Atsumu screamed at his the tears quickly falling from his lower lashes.

"Well what do ya want!?"

"You die fucking understand that!!" Atsumu stomped away tears quickly flowing out his eyes. He ran down stairs before
January 7, 2025 at 3:29 AM
eyes.

"Ya never understand what I say it doesn't make this any easier!!"

"Ya think this is easy fer me or ma!? We had to put you in a hospital because ya hurt yerself!! It not easy ta understand ya, ya know. But I try I try so hard ta understand ya so I can help!!"
January 7, 2025 at 3:29 AM
time.

"Why won't ya let us care!"

"I don't want to be a burden alright!!" His face and voice finally changed filled with exasperations and annoyance.

"Ya arent why can't ya understand that!!?"

"Why cant ya ever understand me!!" He's yelps back tears threatening to fall from
January 7, 2025 at 3:28 AM
"The bullying.."

Osamu looked baffled at the statement as his he could have never expected it.

"Why didn't ya tell me or ma!?"

"I didnt want ya to know or worry" his voice hadnt changed tones since the conversation started. He sounded so out of it, mad, and tired at the same
January 7, 2025 at 3:28 AM
a blank faced expression paired with deep eye bags he hadn't noticed before.

"I did."

"Then why are you doing this again, i- me and ma don't want you doing this to yourself again!!"

"It's happening again. I just thought it would be better."

"What's happening again Atsumu."
January 7, 2025 at 3:28 AM
"I-i dont know? I was curious! "

"Curious about death!?"

"What it felt like to choke and lose consciousness." He replied absentmindedly.

"Atsumu why are you trying to do this again? I-i thought you stopped!" Osamu was out of breath as he looked at his brother who was set with
January 7, 2025 at 3:28 AM
breath. It felt like there was clay stuck to one side of his throat it felt like there was this lump while breathing. It felt weird feeling a hump in his throat when breathing in.

"A-atsumu what the hell are you doing!?" He shook his brother as worry filled his expressions.
January 7, 2025 at 3:27 AM
do he didn't even hear of see Osamu until he spoke up.

"Atsumu, what the fuck!?" His twin stood there shocked at the image in front of him.

"Huh—" his hands stopped pressing against his throat as he turned his head and took a breath.

He coughed several times after the first
January 7, 2025 at 3:27 AM
started to blackout. He started seeing spots of black and few second moments of black before he could blurryly see himself in the mirror again.

As his vision started to black for longer intervals of time Osamu opened up the door.

Atsumu was enamored with what he was trying to
January 7, 2025 at 3:27 AM
squeezed his hands together, adding pressure to his throat everywhere.

His vision started to blur as he continued to look at himself in the mirror. Seeing his hands wrapped around his neck make his feel even better than he already did.

He squeezed even harder now his vision
January 7, 2025 at 3:27 AM
hurt but it felt good. He presses harder and it felt more strained to breathe now.

The breathlessness felt good. The lack of breathing felt good as he heard his chest pound beating on as he tries to cut off his air flow.

Instead of just applying pressure with his fingers, he
January 7, 2025 at 3:26 AM
do much more than before.

He brought his other hand up to his throat changing the positioning of them so his thumbs were around the middle of his throat and his others were at the back of his neck.

He applied some pressure feeling much more this time than before. The pressure
January 7, 2025 at 3:26 AM
He felt disgusting when looking at how is body was shaped. He looked at his hands thinking. Wanting.

He slowly lifted a hand to his throat before squeezing down on it.

It made his breath a little shorter but he couldn't really feel much. He tried squeezing harder but it didnt
January 7, 2025 at 3:26 AM
Atsumu was on his phone before passing out and waking up at about 8PM. He needed to use the bathroom so he made his way there.

After he washed his hands he dried them off and stared at himself. He looked tired looking at his body and seeing how he looked. He hated how he looked
January 7, 2025 at 3:26 AM
louder than than when he was a kid.

Now since he was older he actually had access to the things he could do those with. He knew he probably should try to hurt himself again he still had scars from before and trying to hide it was hard especially when he did it on his wrists.
January 7, 2025 at 3:26 AM
were back and he hated it. It was the worst thing he could feel.

Sure he could ask Samu for help but he hated being a burden to him. He hated making him worry. It only made him feel worse.

The voices in his telling him to hurt himself, drink, and die were back and they were
January 7, 2025 at 3:25 AM
bullying extracted from him made him weak everywhere, he felt raw and defenseless.

Atsumu had been trying to forget everything from early elementary school but as the bullying got more frequent the feelings he pushed down for so long came out. All the thoughts and insecurities
January 7, 2025 at 3:25 AM
was. He would be happy for the next week, at least because he loved being taken care of as much as he loved taking care of.
November 5, 2024 at 8:53 AM
so spark set off i him everytime Kiyoko would even graze his arm. He loved ever second of Kiyoko taking control and making him feel just as good as he hoped to make her feel. By the end of the night he would be a ball of joy smuggling up on Kiyoko whispering how much he lovers her and how great she
November 5, 2024 at 8:52 AM