Also I might delete this when I’m out of my feels…

I’ll be okay, I’m going to keep fighting for my health and happiness but man… life is making it so difficult right now 😩🥹

Im fully at the point of just wanting to lay on the floor and kick and scream about how unfair my life is, even just for a moment because I feel very isolated and alone. Idk why I’m even really writing all this, maybe i just needed to get it out but if you haven’t seen me around much, this is why.

I just can’t help but feel a small sense of doom with the fact that as I try to better my help, i continue to feel worse and worse. I’m sick and bedridden, but I have to work.. my boss and coworkers are getting frustrated with me. I just feel like it’s one step forward, two steps back.

That on top of Diabetes, and hypothyroidism is just! One hell of a concoction and I’m just exhausted. I’ve finally found a Dr that listens to me though, and takes my concerns seriously. She’s actually trying to help me, and I’ve never been more motivated to help myself!

My health has been insanely out of control for… years, honestly. No matter how hard I fought or tried to advocate for myself, as a plus sized women all I got was “lose weight you’ll be fine” and it was not until I was in the ER with a dying ovary that I finally got diagnosed with PCOS.

I only make $9 an hour and I cannot afford super expensive Dr appointments or medication, I am lucky enough to have gotten into not only an income based clinic but also a diabetic assistance program or I wouldn’t even be on the medication I’m on now.

Ive only been able to stomach water and chicken broth for the past 3 days now, but im starving even if i feel sick. And I don’t really have other options because my A1C was a 14.8 which is !INSANE! Incase you didn’t know!

I’m taking it for diabetes, not Weightloss, but still… idk. This shit ain’t easy to take! have felt extremely ill and had to call out of work at least once a week for the past three weeks, because I’m bed ridden with nausea and GI upset.

YAY!!! I’m so glad she was able to be comfortable and accepted around your family 💚

Thank you boooo 😭💚 I’m doing my best!

Ugh stop you’re so gorgeous!!!!

So cuuuute

We love you P2!! Always here for you too, you got this! Very proud of you friend 💚💚💚💚