literally like My brain acts as a Wave of sorts 😼... like ok then explain the photoelectric effect 😭😭😭😭😭😭💀💀💀💀🔥🔥🔥

this is probably how einstein felt when he suggested the photon model and all the weird behaviors of light started making sense. except that MY discovery is WAY more high stakes and world-changing tbh

all the 'obvious' symptoms to me are the ones that i've done my best to hide and that have caused me a lot of pain. so im like WHAT do you know ........ 😿😿😿

"idk" after saying the most obvious thing ever MAN WTE SHUT UP 😭

it's just been repeatedly traumatizing and looking back on it makes me sad and angry idk

- could be due to an invisible barrier ive had and always will have between me and a majority of other ppl no matter how hard ive tried and how badly ive wanted it since forever is like scary idk

all my autistic friends who clocked me plus my autistic peer at school who assumed i was also autistic after only a week of seeing how i interact with the world ..... you may have possibly just won this round .......

bruh. god i think everyone was right 😭😭😭

its weird because i never related to a lot of major autism symptoms but the current understanding of audhd fills in literally all of the blanks

no worries sorry your therapists were shit 😔

- at the age of 24 through a majority of my athletic college career with 20 injuries my PT started telling me i should let my professors know i have suspected scoliosis and would need accommodations

just defending my girl ms. therapist rq...

like i said we both already have reasons to believe it's possible but if i was like "no i dont think so at all" then we just wouldnt look into it. cuz i also went to her thinking i didnt have adhd and then a couple years later she diagnosed me like "bruh get help..." LOL

esp since ive been seeing her regularly for multiple years ykwim

oh ya it'd just be a really big deal cuz ive been denying it since i was a teen so itd just be a bit overwhelming + ironic. also she isnt talking to me like 100% tbf and is the one who diagnosed me with adhd even though the neurologist i went to didnt want to. so it's within her scope of practice

that i could have audhd ? i have a lot of reasons that would make it unsurprising if i do but i dont think i can be accurately evaluated at this point anyway. if that's what ur asking

what kind of thing?