yes 👍 dw its okay im not super urgent about it so just lmk when and i will place this account into the ether
ill dm you the new @ also

ofc i will dm 🔥

ill dm 👍

or c9mment

i dont care if a lot of is ingenuine. i just want to become what everyone wants to be. i need to be necessary. and i need to be necessary to be loved. and i need to look good to be loved. and i dont look good enough. im not necesary enoutgh. i need to be better. more ideal. more marketable

also the aesthetic of achieving. perfection. and being someone with unimaginably high standards . idk i felt like i had to prove mysef constantly. bunch of stuff and i cant elaborate super well rn but i nevr felt like i was strong enough or good enough. addicted to external validation

i was always focused on maximising shit for no good reason. that te se loop. ueah

cant say much cause im a bit busy rn but i used to feel like this 24/7 i was legit addicted to the grind and stress cause i felt like it gave my life some semblance of meaning and progress while i felt stuck everywhere else. so yeah

epic win

i dont want to be in that room again ever again actually

idk how to explain it. genderqueer

i think this (whil enot all of it) is part of the reason i feel like im a girl in a queer way rather than being 'part cis.' and i hope nobody sees it that way. im still trans as a girl. and im still also a guy sometmes. but i prefer being a girl. just in my own way. as a trans person.

i think a lot of me feels like i cant be a girl cause im not allowed either. like what. im afab and dont feel like im allowed to be a woman in any way. why is that. accepting im a man was so much easier than accepting im a woman. its so fucked

i never felt lik ea 'real girl' despite being afab. like a fake girl. i only feel like a girl when i can also be a man in some way.