But then another side of me feels like an asshole because I did the bare minimum like a pat in the shoulder saying "it's alright" so I look like I don't actually care

I'll confess in dec...

Plus the people I'm attracted to are so hard to find I have to pretty much resort to online dating. That would be fine if my love language wasnt physical touch. I fucking hate this feeling and I wish I didn't care.

I want to spend time doing literally anything with them. Walking in the park, eating, even something as boring as filing taxes, fuck I don't care. I haven't found that person yet, and every time I think I have chemistry with someone they're already taken. I hate this so much.

I want to cuddle someone, I want to kiss them all over, hold their hand, hug them, give them gifts, get their favorite food for them. I want to go to a store and have them with me, if not physically, then mentally, because I heard a song they love.