I sometimes wonder why it was that whenever I had to go to certain family social outings, I always got hit with such a powerful urge to sleep. It's like I got exhausted immediately, and I always felt so ashamed that I couldn't seem to stay awake. I swear I'm the sleepiest to ever do it.

Me: I hate my psych meds, I am not getting better, I need to try something different!
-off of focalin for 3 days-
-descends into a death spiral, becomes more depressed than ever-
...okay, maybe it was doing something idk

I am so tired of being alive. I hate fighting my brain every day and dissapointing everyone I care about