Kere
@kerepakupai.bsky.social
Just an anxious opossum making things and hopefully friends.
I experience PTSD and Schizoaffective Disorder and struggle with daily pain and a debilitating undiagnosed GI disorder.
34 yrs old, She/They
My Shop:
https://devilsmouthforge.bigcartel.com/
I experience PTSD and Schizoaffective Disorder and struggle with daily pain and a debilitating undiagnosed GI disorder.
34 yrs old, She/They
My Shop:
https://devilsmouthforge.bigcartel.com/
man after being nearly anhedonic for so long, feeling actual motivation, especially over petty things, makes me feel like a little kid still feeling the joy of experience
i do also maybe already feel some mania-like struggles
its kinda scary, actually, for my restraint-oriented mind
i do also maybe already feel some mania-like struggles
its kinda scary, actually, for my restraint-oriented mind
December 8, 2025 at 12:07 AM
man after being nearly anhedonic for so long, feeling actual motivation, especially over petty things, makes me feel like a little kid still feeling the joy of experience
i do also maybe already feel some mania-like struggles
its kinda scary, actually, for my restraint-oriented mind
i do also maybe already feel some mania-like struggles
its kinda scary, actually, for my restraint-oriented mind
I AM NOW ONCE AGAIN MEDICATED
its not over for anyone
but it might get to start for me again
🤞💊
its not over for anyone
but it might get to start for me again
🤞💊
December 4, 2025 at 6:48 PM
I AM NOW ONCE AGAIN MEDICATED
its not over for anyone
but it might get to start for me again
🤞💊
its not over for anyone
but it might get to start for me again
🤞💊
dont you love it when people post on social media with complete disregard for reach, if anyone will like it, relevance or even enjoyability
anyways
got a gap in my teeth from the latest chip
getting it filled tuesday, hopefully
anyways
got a gap in my teeth from the latest chip
getting it filled tuesday, hopefully
December 3, 2025 at 7:42 PM
dont you love it when people post on social media with complete disregard for reach, if anyone will like it, relevance or even enjoyability
anyways
got a gap in my teeth from the latest chip
getting it filled tuesday, hopefully
anyways
got a gap in my teeth from the latest chip
getting it filled tuesday, hopefully
aw man the chip left a sharp gap the inside of my lips keep catching on
is this information useful for anyone??
dont drink lye 📝
is this information useful for anyone??
dont drink lye 📝
December 3, 2025 at 6:54 PM
aw man the chip left a sharp gap the inside of my lips keep catching on
is this information useful for anyone??
dont drink lye 📝
is this information useful for anyone??
dont drink lye 📝
cw: discussing aftermath of suicide attempt
drinking a bunch of lye burns your organs and its horrible
if you survive, years later, when youre finally well enough to start taking care of yourself-
your teeth will just keep chipping apart super duper painfully, leaving big tender holes
heres #6
drinking a bunch of lye burns your organs and its horrible
if you survive, years later, when youre finally well enough to start taking care of yourself-
your teeth will just keep chipping apart super duper painfully, leaving big tender holes
heres #6
December 3, 2025 at 6:38 PM
cw: discussing aftermath of suicide attempt
drinking a bunch of lye burns your organs and its horrible
if you survive, years later, when youre finally well enough to start taking care of yourself-
your teeth will just keep chipping apart super duper painfully, leaving big tender holes
heres #6
drinking a bunch of lye burns your organs and its horrible
if you survive, years later, when youre finally well enough to start taking care of yourself-
your teeth will just keep chipping apart super duper painfully, leaving big tender holes
heres #6
finally getting medicated again soon, caplyta/lumateperone
its similar to risperidone/vraylar/paliperidone which really scares me cuz going through that really hollowed me out
but i gotta be hopeful, i guess
maybe it'll be better soon
its similar to risperidone/vraylar/paliperidone which really scares me cuz going through that really hollowed me out
but i gotta be hopeful, i guess
maybe it'll be better soon
November 18, 2025 at 3:23 PM
finally getting medicated again soon, caplyta/lumateperone
its similar to risperidone/vraylar/paliperidone which really scares me cuz going through that really hollowed me out
but i gotta be hopeful, i guess
maybe it'll be better soon
its similar to risperidone/vraylar/paliperidone which really scares me cuz going through that really hollowed me out
but i gotta be hopeful, i guess
maybe it'll be better soon
why does the test for stomach infection have to involve making it really bad and painful
like has someone really not figured out a less shitty way
oougghh oof ouch ow oouu
like has someone really not figured out a less shitty way
oougghh oof ouch ow oouu
November 13, 2025 at 11:19 PM
why does the test for stomach infection have to involve making it really bad and painful
like has someone really not figured out a less shitty way
oougghh oof ouch ow oouu
like has someone really not figured out a less shitty way
oougghh oof ouch ow oouu
no disrespect to sexually interested monster loving people but i felt compelled to share this as a recovered fetishized monster who realized they were actually a sex-repulsed (and positive) grey-ace
November 11, 2025 at 3:56 PM
no disrespect to sexually interested monster loving people but i felt compelled to share this as a recovered fetishized monster who realized they were actually a sex-repulsed (and positive) grey-ace
generated this for myself after reaching a hugely relieving milestone in my current mental health struggles this morning
it still feels a little like i brainwashed myself (as opposed to REALLY REALLY feeling like im brainwashing myself) but i feel more actualized and im in less pain and confusion
it still feels a little like i brainwashed myself (as opposed to REALLY REALLY feeling like im brainwashing myself) but i feel more actualized and im in less pain and confusion
November 11, 2025 at 2:31 PM
generated this for myself after reaching a hugely relieving milestone in my current mental health struggles this morning
it still feels a little like i brainwashed myself (as opposed to REALLY REALLY feeling like im brainwashing myself) but i feel more actualized and im in less pain and confusion
it still feels a little like i brainwashed myself (as opposed to REALLY REALLY feeling like im brainwashing myself) but i feel more actualized and im in less pain and confusion
noooooo another huge chunk came out of one of my teeth 😢💔
i was so relieved to be done with fillings earlier this year but i guess this is just gonna keep happening
maaaaaaan 😩🦷💢
i was so relieved to be done with fillings earlier this year but i guess this is just gonna keep happening
maaaaaaan 😩🦷💢
November 10, 2025 at 9:12 PM
noooooo another huge chunk came out of one of my teeth 😢💔
i was so relieved to be done with fillings earlier this year but i guess this is just gonna keep happening
maaaaaaan 😩🦷💢
i was so relieved to be done with fillings earlier this year but i guess this is just gonna keep happening
maaaaaaan 😩🦷💢
Finally letting all the ones ive had trapped in storage for years from my maladjusted vulture culturism days go back home today via bon(e) fire
it feels horrific that its taken this long, that i essentially forgot about them all as i kept having to deal with life
some death mother i am 😞
it feels horrific that its taken this long, that i essentially forgot about them all as i kept having to deal with life
some death mother i am 😞
November 10, 2025 at 7:35 PM
Finally letting all the ones ive had trapped in storage for years from my maladjusted vulture culturism days go back home today via bon(e) fire
it feels horrific that its taken this long, that i essentially forgot about them all as i kept having to deal with life
some death mother i am 😞
it feels horrific that its taken this long, that i essentially forgot about them all as i kept having to deal with life
some death mother i am 😞
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everyone needs to grow the fuck up and start playing pretend with toys
November 7, 2025 at 1:41 AM
everyone needs to grow the fuck up and start playing pretend with toys
i think making myself a piece of gray-ace pride clothing would help me feel a little better
like a belt or something
plenty of natural sources of purple dye where i live??
like a belt or something
plenty of natural sources of purple dye where i live??
October 28, 2025 at 3:09 PM
i think making myself a piece of gray-ace pride clothing would help me feel a little better
like a belt or something
plenty of natural sources of purple dye where i live??
like a belt or something
plenty of natural sources of purple dye where i live??
i am in the "starting to make sense of what all these passage-way based entities keep trying to tell me" stage of chronic stress-induced psychotic symptoms
but im actually very not much else besides someone who knows how to healthily endure and process frequent emotional floods of terror
but im actually very not much else besides someone who knows how to healthily endure and process frequent emotional floods of terror
October 27, 2025 at 4:11 PM
i am in the "starting to make sense of what all these passage-way based entities keep trying to tell me" stage of chronic stress-induced psychotic symptoms
but im actually very not much else besides someone who knows how to healthily endure and process frequent emotional floods of terror
but im actually very not much else besides someone who knows how to healthily endure and process frequent emotional floods of terror
Reposted by Kere
it's really hard being a kind lovable sweetiepie who's also an antisocial hermit
October 18, 2025 at 3:53 PM
it's really hard being a kind lovable sweetiepie who's also an antisocial hermit
Reposted by Kere
look at this weird fucker i made, i love fucking around with colors so much lately
#art #horrorart #horror #illustration #horrorillustration
#art #horrorart #horror #illustration #horrorillustration
September 7, 2025 at 10:09 PM
look at this weird fucker i made, i love fucking around with colors so much lately
#art #horrorart #horror #illustration #horrorillustration
#art #horrorart #horror #illustration #horrorillustration
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Congratulations to Venezuela on winning the Nobel Peace Prize. ❤️🇻🇪
October 10, 2025 at 6:56 PM
Congratulations to Venezuela on winning the Nobel Peace Prize. ❤️🇻🇪
haven't been posting much of my work lately, whoops
been dealing with a lot- my meds made me ideate/very angry so now im unmedicated for a bit, my wife and i became homeowners yesterday so we're moving, etc
but heres three proto- tournament prizes im making on commission in the middle of all this
been dealing with a lot- my meds made me ideate/very angry so now im unmedicated for a bit, my wife and i became homeowners yesterday so we're moving, etc
but heres three proto- tournament prizes im making on commission in the middle of all this
September 25, 2025 at 9:08 PM
haven't been posting much of my work lately, whoops
been dealing with a lot- my meds made me ideate/very angry so now im unmedicated for a bit, my wife and i became homeowners yesterday so we're moving, etc
but heres three proto- tournament prizes im making on commission in the middle of all this
been dealing with a lot- my meds made me ideate/very angry so now im unmedicated for a bit, my wife and i became homeowners yesterday so we're moving, etc
but heres three proto- tournament prizes im making on commission in the middle of all this
man, making a tiny epée blade is fucking tough
fourth times the charm?
forging it super chunky and mostly doing removal this time
fourth times the charm?
forging it super chunky and mostly doing removal this time
September 18, 2025 at 7:50 PM
man, making a tiny epée blade is fucking tough
fourth times the charm?
forging it super chunky and mostly doing removal this time
fourth times the charm?
forging it super chunky and mostly doing removal this time
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my comic i drew for myself
September 5, 2025 at 12:38 AM
my comic i drew for myself
does anyone else with chronic intense GI problems sometimes just give in and do a minimal flushing diet and/or do a senna/etc purge in preparation for an event where you just really really really dont want to have to deal with the constant pain and other symptoms?
im about to, wish me luck 😩🤞🏽
im about to, wish me luck 😩🤞🏽
September 4, 2025 at 4:26 PM
does anyone else with chronic intense GI problems sometimes just give in and do a minimal flushing diet and/or do a senna/etc purge in preparation for an event where you just really really really dont want to have to deal with the constant pain and other symptoms?
im about to, wish me luck 😩🤞🏽
im about to, wish me luck 😩🤞🏽
putting a warm one back together with the girls
August 29, 2025 at 12:29 AM
putting a warm one back together with the girls
someone rip out my guts and replace them with some kind of combo of fuel chute, fire pot and ash catcher system, please
i no longer wish to rely on constantly painful, scar-filled meat to absorb nutrients
let me run on charcoal
it'll work, it'll totally work
c'mon man
i no longer wish to rely on constantly painful, scar-filled meat to absorb nutrients
let me run on charcoal
it'll work, it'll totally work
c'mon man
August 28, 2025 at 9:11 PM
someone rip out my guts and replace them with some kind of combo of fuel chute, fire pot and ash catcher system, please
i no longer wish to rely on constantly painful, scar-filled meat to absorb nutrients
let me run on charcoal
it'll work, it'll totally work
c'mon man
i no longer wish to rely on constantly painful, scar-filled meat to absorb nutrients
let me run on charcoal
it'll work, it'll totally work
c'mon man
Reposted by Kere
Today marks the 40th anniversary of the 7th episode of Dirty Pair, "愛こそすべて命賭けます逃避行!!" or "Love Is Everything, Betting Their Lives on Elopement", one of the most overtly trans-positive episodes of anime of its era. This was the future they predicted for us in 1985. We can still get there.
August 26, 2025 at 6:40 AM
Today marks the 40th anniversary of the 7th episode of Dirty Pair, "愛こそすべて命賭けます逃避行!!" or "Love Is Everything, Betting Their Lives on Elopement", one of the most overtly trans-positive episodes of anime of its era. This was the future they predicted for us in 1985. We can still get there.