I've felt that too, but you're so right. I'll do it this year too, even if they are gaps. I believe in you bestie <3

trying to show up for myself where it matters and get back to just DOing.

I've definitely been having a lot of underlying stress and anxiety concerning college and my life path right now, but it does feel like I am getting there or at least somewhere.

I'm talking about. it's just something I've had to navigate for myself and have found these little breadcrumbs of thought along the way.

Along with everything else my family has gone through in the last 5 years, my... headspace really has just been in all kinds of wrong ways, and yet I'm still

not only every decision perfectly, but every thing I would do... perfectly. I've definitely acclimated to that kind of thinking for a lot of things, which I think has held me back in a lot of ways.

This isn't a roundabout way of shifting blame, that's not what I would want anyone to take from what

...

I'm just.. there's a lot that I've been redefining for myself, but I think I'm changing my tune of struggling to believe in myself, especially because I don't have to be perfect. Not at every waking moment. Growing up with risk-averse parents has maybe also lead to me thinking I had to make

And that was something that made me feel like less of an artist or less of a person that was encroaching upon me more and more instead of just the joy of creating anything and finding the worth in the act of simply doing even though it is something that I love.

you think about it?

Part of me thinks I got that idea from a background thought that my work had to be perfect to mean or warrant any monetary gain, which just isn't true yet fueled a lot of my perfectionism that has caused a lot of my internal life struggles with so much of what I do/have done?

Another example of the YCH I did for me goodest friend @lunal.dad