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kianspo
@kianspo.bsky.social
fandom ancient, fandom evil 😈👻🧹|currently hualian, but also yanshen, wangxian,svsss, cezhou, ranwan, and other danmei 😌 | very little idea what I’m doing here 🤣
So effing sweet
September 9, 2025 at 4:08 PM
this nightmare of a country, I'd come get you rn, honest, and fed you many cookies. The breakthrough will come, it always does, just maybe not where you're expecting it. Hugs, hugs, hugs. ❤️
September 5, 2025 at 8:07 AM
like you're still trying to manage it, to hold it in check. That's perhaps the only advice I can give from experience--don't. The only thing it does is exhaust you even more. And it's easy to slip into feeling that no one cares, but that's not true, don't listen to that voice. If I didn't live in
September 5, 2025 at 8:07 AM
And by 'moments' I mean 'years.' The only clarity I can offer on the subject is that no solution can be born when you're burntout and exhausted, but getting yourself to not being so is its own challenge. Despair, cry, scream, yell. Let it out at least, that's some relief. By description, you sound
September 5, 2025 at 8:07 AM
Can't say anything that won't sound like empty words, but fwiw sending many hugs. There are moments when I think life shouldn't be as hard as it is, and moments when nothing works and I don't understand if that means I should stop or keep going in a particular direction. Spoiler: I have no answers.
September 5, 2025 at 8:07 AM
Are you kidding me, you'r art is GORGEOUS ❤️
August 18, 2025 at 4:49 PM
actually anti-social, I just don't normally reply to comments for the aforementioned reasons, but I'm always happy to answer questions and chat.

I'm glad you liked the fic! ❤️🦊❤️
August 17, 2025 at 11:00 AM
went about how it always goes. I guess, to some people it would look like 'oh, she can't handle a word of criticism.' Which is far from true, I usually have a good grip on the instinct to defend myself. But this was about the guys, so I couldn't let it be.

Anyway, thanks for reaching out! I'm not
August 17, 2025 at 11:00 AM
readers to see that comment and think that that was my intention. To me, it was a beautiful moment of HC handing over all power to XL, and to have it interpreted as a 'r*pe victim lashing out' was painful. I didn't want anyone else thinking that, so I felt the necessity to budge in. Alas, lol, it
August 17, 2025 at 11:00 AM
someone attacked it, I couldn't let it go. I would have probably swallowed the implication that I'm stupid alone, but together with this, it was too much. 🤣
I especially didn't like the interpretation that HC was some kind of 'good abuser' and XL was his victim. And as you said, I didn't want other
August 17, 2025 at 11:00 AM
of mine when someone implies I'm unintelligent or didn't think before I spoke/wrote something. Two, that particular parallel wrote itself in and it became one of my favorite things about this fic. I felt that the witch/tiger thing suited hualian immensely and I was quite enamoured with it. So when
August 17, 2025 at 11:00 AM
why do you ask?' in the author's notes, but then decided against it not to distract from the actual plot. 🤣
I normally don't argue with readers, as I said, the work speaks for itself, and if it's insufficient, too bad for me. However, this time, two things bugged me. One, it's a personal pet peeve
August 17, 2025 at 11:00 AM
that either the readers would be familiar with the myth and therefore wouldn't need my pointers to distinguish them, or they wouldn't know it and therefore wouldn't care, since this wasn't the point anyway. The second part of irony was that I was going to put 'Yes, my HC is a Madeline Miller fan,
August 17, 2025 at 11:00 AM
Thank you, you're very sweet. ❤️ Ah yes, the Circe comments. 🤣 The situation is ironic for two reasons: one, in the initial draft, HC had started off by saying 'I know it's not the classic version of the myth, but this one makes more sense to me' and then I cut it for excessive dialogue. I figured
August 17, 2025 at 11:00 AM