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kiDChan
@kidchan.bsky.social
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Once there was a kid and a pencil. It does not end well. [email protected]
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · Apr 8
hi hi #PortfolioDay ~~!
I am kiDChan, I like to draw girls and have done book+novel covers, comics, promotional materials, apparels, commissions and anything that I can make, I will try my best!!

My contact is [email protected]
More of my works here
www.artstation.com/kidchan

Thank you~!
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · 15h
I feel very alone rushing this zine, I have not even finish painting the cover, I don't even know if there's anyone interested.....but being able to draw is better than whatever I felt during the pandemic
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · 15h
the more I draw him the curlier his hair gets
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · 1d
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · 1d
thank you!! I am trying to make a zine of them, hope I can meet the deadline....your comment made me happy!!
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · 2d
tiny tiny progress today
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · 7d
listening to a lot of Utada Hikaru
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · 8d
A bit of progress tonight. Goodnightttttt!!
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · 9d
shuake zine on the wayyyyyyyyyyyyydxfgdfg
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · 9d
Thank you everyone for your suggestions! I think green is a very challenging colour, so I will go with green to test my limit, also will add some purple as accent. Many many thanks, I will try my best 🙇‍♀️
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · 15d
do you guys prefer the green one or the slightly purple one? I can't tell, I am feeling burnout but I want to paint
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · 15d
I didn't tell my family I was admitted to the hospital, I made sure the staff to not contact my elder sister about this, this is the first time I am admitting I have been warded in the psychiatric ward twice. I'm just.....trying....
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · 15d
I have to visit psychiatrist twice this month, also from my last visit the psychiatrist asked if I want to be admitted to the psychiatric ward.....I went for once this year, I need to work I can't be admitted again I need to work
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · 15d
sorry......I think my burnout is back but I still want to draw/paint T___T

maybe I will draw lineart instead of painting while I am trying to recover
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · 15d
do you guys prefer the green one or the slightly purple one? I can't tell, I am feeling burnout but I want to paint
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · 15d
Welp guess it's time to rush my shuake zine 🫠🫠🫠🫠
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · Aug 28
very simple composition I am doing lately because I am still feeling a little burnout, but I still wanna try drawing and painting. I like to challenge myself back then but now I want to try to finish at least one painting as soon as possible
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · Aug 28
sketch vs final
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · Aug 8
In order words, hold my hand
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · Aug 8
I'm done.
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · Aug 8
I can only draw what I can with my limitations, and your words linger in my head everyday, I have no choice, if it is not beautiful so be it. I'm a trash, like you said.

I will make my own world in this trash, if I can't get your validation, then it is fated.
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · Aug 8
I don't have answers for myself. I know how worthless I am, my works will never be beautiful, and i can never get any validation from you until the day I leave this world.

I really have nothing. The only link I have in this world is already buried in the sea.
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · Aug 8
It's been so many years, you can't let go of saying my works are not beautiful, and I can't let go of the feeling of not getting a validation from you. Why do I draw? What's the meaning? It was supposed to get your attention, but until now, it is not beautiful
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · Aug 8
"I don't know why did I gave birth to you" "you never let me sleep when you are a baby" "you are a rotten child" "you will live a beggars life"

Why do I always hear these words from you? I didn't asked to be born, if given the chance, I would choose not to be born at all
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · Aug 8
Am I so worthless to you? With my artworks, I supported the family financially, is that not love? How much more do I need to prove myself? After so many years, you never ever say the word "beautiful" to my drawings.
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · Aug 8
So I travel to Ipoh to handle the funeral, I told my dad that I am grateful to him for allowing me to draw, for buying me a computer so I could connect to the other world with my drawings.

At night, my mom said

"You know, your drawings only look beautiful if you love me"
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kiDChan @kidchan.bsky.social · Aug 8
After getting double the amount of antidepressants, I started to feel better, and able to draw little by little.

This year I finished one illustration, and I was happy.

And then I got the news that my father passed away
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